I would like to quote what Vincent has said to me yesterday night. He said, "It's just like light and darkness. The closer you come to the light, the bigger your shadow is."
I don't know where he got that from but i like the idea of it. :D
We were talking about some other things but what struck my mind was that this illustration truly shows us and God.
The closer you go to God, the clearer you can see your sins and how dark it is compared to the glorious light from Jesus. The more you know God, the more you know how much grace and mercy He has poured forth for you. The closer you get to Him, the more you wonder how foolish it was for you to want to stay in the darkness previously. The closer you get to Him, the more you realize how fallen you are that nothing but the sacrifice of Jesus Christ can save you from all of those.
How blessed i am. :)
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Saturday, December 10, 2011
An act of kindness touches deep
First of all, this urge of posting is inspired by a little show of kindness to me from a friend whom i'm not really close with. I'm touched by her gesture, her generosity and so, i want to thank her here! Lye, i know you probably won't read this, but thank you! :D
And so, i want to thank the rest of my friends who are here when i need help or support. *getting emotional dy* Thank you for all of the thoughtfulness, the helps, the HELPS, the supports, the concerns etc. I deeply appreciate all of them and i will not forget them. ;)
In my previous post, i was pretty in a down state. Don't worry about it. I'm now alright! :)) More than alright i suppose. Hehe. The day before the competition, it was so terrible we felt we lost all hope. I was just thinking of going up and not to embarass ourselves only. So, in the morning of the competition day, we finally whipped up some simple mash up. (This is UPSI Got Talent competition, whereby it was opened to all UPSI students. Held in auditorium)
Before going up stage, i was pretty nervous. Really prayed to God and then performed. It was so scary, seeing the crowd but the shouts from friends really cooled me down. We didn't have a rehearsal using mics etc so there're so many technical problems. My guitar couldn't really be heard because i didn't know how to turn up the volume and i didn't know how loud it should be. Same goes to my mic. I thought it was already very loud so i drew further away from it, but after listening to the video, i realise i can't really be heard! Ugh! Wasted..can't really hear the harmonization! haha!
But anyway, when the result was being anounced, starting from the tenth place, we really thought we're not going to get anything at all when it reached the 3rd place because our group was still not called and the 3rd place is Kevin's team and they were so so good! So when they announced our name, i was like, "You serious ar? I don't think it's us la". When Syazza stood up, i wanted to tell her that i think we heard wrongly. But the judges looked at us, so i was like..omgeeee, is it really us?? Lol. So we got RM100 and a trophy! Still can't believe it.
Anyhow, life is back to the routine again i guess.Time to face assignments and tests! :)) God bless everyone!!
And so, i want to thank the rest of my friends who are here when i need help or support. *getting emotional dy* Thank you for all of the thoughtfulness, the helps, the HELPS, the supports, the concerns etc. I deeply appreciate all of them and i will not forget them. ;)
In my previous post, i was pretty in a down state. Don't worry about it. I'm now alright! :)) More than alright i suppose. Hehe. The day before the competition, it was so terrible we felt we lost all hope. I was just thinking of going up and not to embarass ourselves only. So, in the morning of the competition day, we finally whipped up some simple mash up. (This is UPSI Got Talent competition, whereby it was opened to all UPSI students. Held in auditorium)
Before going up stage, i was pretty nervous. Really prayed to God and then performed. It was so scary, seeing the crowd but the shouts from friends really cooled me down. We didn't have a rehearsal using mics etc so there're so many technical problems. My guitar couldn't really be heard because i didn't know how to turn up the volume and i didn't know how loud it should be. Same goes to my mic. I thought it was already very loud so i drew further away from it, but after listening to the video, i realise i can't really be heard! Ugh! Wasted..can't really hear the harmonization! haha!
But anyway, when the result was being anounced, starting from the tenth place, we really thought we're not going to get anything at all when it reached the 3rd place because our group was still not called and the 3rd place is Kevin's team and they were so so good! So when they announced our name, i was like, "You serious ar? I don't think it's us la". When Syazza stood up, i wanted to tell her that i think we heard wrongly. But the judges looked at us, so i was like..omgeeee, is it really us?? Lol. So we got RM100 and a trophy! Still can't believe it.
Anyhow, life is back to the routine again i guess.Time to face assignments and tests! :)) God bless everyone!!
Friday, December 9, 2011
Devotion
God doesn't need our money. He wants our devotion. God doesn't want our gifts, presents. He wants our obedience. I was feeling rather stressed and depressed. Due to certain few things. I was feeling rather frustrated already due to the terrible practices we had and i seriously have no idea how its going to turn out tomorrow. To also feel like a statue, said to be adored yet not being interested enough to be cared, i was feeling really....terrible. Anyway, i reflected this statue situation and i felt a pang of sadness in me. How many times have i done that to God? It's not things He want from me, He just want me. He wants me to seek Him. He wants the intimacy. And now i understand at least a little (too little still) of how that feels and how much it hurts Him. Forgive me Jesus.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
A day~
Yesterday was quite a relaxing day. If you don't include me being drenched in the rain for the second time in 3 days. I sort of finished my synthesis report and almost done with my grammar one as well during Sahsiah class. Though my synthesis report was not really what the lecturer wanted, i guess it should pass. After class, went to the library to study Grammar. I didn't progress much as i kept dozing off. I was facing the scenery outside and it was so nice watching the clouds passing by and birds flying in freedom with mountains as the background. After that, went to Olahraga and did running. It'd been some time i didn't run like this! It feels really really good as it brought back memories of me running for my house in school. The smell of grass, the rush of wind against my face and blowing through my hair, the pump of adrenaline, the desire to run as fast as i can.
After Olahraga, i didn't follow the rest to dinner as i'd to rush back to college to prepare for a function. D'Sync was called to perform. So, was kinda hungry. My friend was supposed to tapau for me but she forgot to do that. So, i had to buy nasi lemak from the cafe, which after that, i found out i don't have to. In the function (some sort of alumni), they provided food for us and it was so scrumptious! We couldn't eat initially when the guests were welcomed to eat as we were thinking that after our performance only we would.
But, the temptation was too strong! So, at first, we just took the pudding cracker (my first time and it was GOOD!) and cocktail. Then, couldn't resist again, we started wolfing down the rice and lauk-pauk (ikan bakars, all kinds of sambal, chicken curry merah) in front of us. :D Ate halfway, we went to perform.
The crowd was a small one though the hall was large. There were many empty tables around with food in each one. Almost all who were present were above 40s, so we were thinking, 'Darn, our songs don't suit them', as we were going to sing Just The Way You Are and Price Tag. Anyhow, we sang that and due to the quiet dinner, we sang quietly too in a serene manner. Kinda nice. My Sahsiah lecturer was there too and he was watching me. So embarassing! Hope he won't say anything during class later. I almost couldn't remember whether he was my Sahsiah lecturer or Olahraga when we met at the hallway. Fortunately i didn't ask him Olahraga-related question, which i almost wanted to. Phew. So after performing, we resumed eating! :DD
Well, now, i'm supposed to study Grammar, but heck, i'm so lazy to do that. I wish it would just be filling in the blanks in the exam and not some explanations kind of questions. God bless everyone! :)
After Olahraga, i didn't follow the rest to dinner as i'd to rush back to college to prepare for a function. D'Sync was called to perform. So, was kinda hungry. My friend was supposed to tapau for me but she forgot to do that. So, i had to buy nasi lemak from the cafe, which after that, i found out i don't have to. In the function (some sort of alumni), they provided food for us and it was so scrumptious! We couldn't eat initially when the guests were welcomed to eat as we were thinking that after our performance only we would.
But, the temptation was too strong! So, at first, we just took the pudding cracker (my first time and it was GOOD!) and cocktail. Then, couldn't resist again, we started wolfing down the rice and lauk-pauk (ikan bakars, all kinds of sambal, chicken curry merah) in front of us. :D Ate halfway, we went to perform.
The crowd was a small one though the hall was large. There were many empty tables around with food in each one. Almost all who were present were above 40s, so we were thinking, 'Darn, our songs don't suit them', as we were going to sing Just The Way You Are and Price Tag. Anyhow, we sang that and due to the quiet dinner, we sang quietly too in a serene manner. Kinda nice. My Sahsiah lecturer was there too and he was watching me. So embarassing! Hope he won't say anything during class later. I almost couldn't remember whether he was my Sahsiah lecturer or Olahraga when we met at the hallway. Fortunately i didn't ask him Olahraga-related question, which i almost wanted to. Phew. So after performing, we resumed eating! :DD
Well, now, i'm supposed to study Grammar, but heck, i'm so lazy to do that. I wish it would just be filling in the blanks in the exam and not some explanations kind of questions. God bless everyone! :)
Sunday, November 27, 2011
D'Sync & Z.G.
These past few days had been..crazy yet again! Joined another singing competition, this time in 2 groups! First group is D'Sync. Second group is a new-found group, all consists of TESL-ians (Sharon, Yvonne, Jack, Vin, Jared, Ken and me). The name is Zero Gravity (almost named it Antiseptic..lol). We sang Jar Of Hearts, When You Say Nothing At All, and You're Beautiful. So yeah, it was actually just for fun. We were pretty lack of practice and worse, forgot to tune our guitars before we went up stage. So, imagine! haha! Oh wells, at least gained another experience and practising was fun! :DD
D'Syns's too not enough practice, lesser in fact. So we only sang one song, Just The Way You Are. Everything was pretty ok until the end when we sort of forgot how it goes! Syazza stopped singing and i was left singing the harmony. So it sounded pretty weird. Huhu. Brush that aside. So, expectedly, we didn't win anything. Hehe. There was this girl who sang Rolling in the Deep. She was so awesome you would have thought it was the real singer singing live. =P
So, after all of these running-arounds, noise, etc.. today and tomorrow would be a day of quietness. I would be sort of stuck at home here in uni today and tomorrow. Got to force myself to do report and hopefully, after that, to study a little bit on Grammar, which i doubt i can. =O Looking to spending some real quiet time with Jesus, not the fast stopping by. This quietness will be good for me. In fact, it was really hard to say no to going out on Monday to shop but i know i've been bombarded with so many things until i would feel uncomfortable if there's nothing going on at all, or when there's no noise but quietness. A day to slower down myself is what i need to balance everything. :)
D'Syns's too not enough practice, lesser in fact. So we only sang one song, Just The Way You Are. Everything was pretty ok until the end when we sort of forgot how it goes! Syazza stopped singing and i was left singing the harmony. So it sounded pretty weird. Huhu. Brush that aside. So, expectedly, we didn't win anything. Hehe. There was this girl who sang Rolling in the Deep. She was so awesome you would have thought it was the real singer singing live. =P
So, after all of these running-arounds, noise, etc.. today and tomorrow would be a day of quietness. I would be sort of stuck at home here in uni today and tomorrow. Got to force myself to do report and hopefully, after that, to study a little bit on Grammar, which i doubt i can. =O Looking to spending some real quiet time with Jesus, not the fast stopping by. This quietness will be good for me. In fact, it was really hard to say no to going out on Monday to shop but i know i've been bombarded with so many things until i would feel uncomfortable if there's nothing going on at all, or when there's no noise but quietness. A day to slower down myself is what i need to balance everything. :)
Monday, November 21, 2011
KHAR Talent Time Competition
Here i am, filled with junk food and biscuits! Uncomfortably full. That's what not-real FOOD does to me. I need REAL food! I've been surviving mostly on those food in this past 2 days! Well, story is i recently joined a Talent Time competition organised by KHAR. Me, Yvonne and Syazza were called to form a team representing my college for the competition.
Started being busy with the practices since Wednesday, if im not mistaken (it seems so long ago!). The competition was then held on Saturday night. We sang Memori Tercipta and Price Tag and all three of us played guitar while singing. It was really an enjoyable moment in front thanks to all who had came to support! Met lots of unique people at the back stage too!
There were 24 groups altogether in the comp. So yeah, pretty a lot of competitors so we didn't expect too much on being selected for the finals! Lo and behold, the committee called me on Sunday morning informing us that we got selected! I was in church service and am glad i didn't shout too loud because of that! :D
So, on Sunday night we performed again. Only 6 groups got chosen. At first, wanted to change our songs but in the end, we had not enough time to do much except to add on 'When You Look Me in the Eyes' song. It was not that bad! But well, the performance on Sunday wasn't as nice as Saturday. Probably we were pretty nervous as it was final! But Yvonne got the rap thing alright! It went quite well!
Well, in the end, the result came out and we got second!! The first is also from our college, the nasyid team! So my college sapu-ed all the group prizes! :P Not bad! Kinda happy at least we can get a placing! And the most important is experience, the memory and the skill learnt!
So yeah, with all that was said, what has all of these got to do with me eating biscuits for 2 days? I simply didn't have any time for lunch! And we couldn't take dinner because had to sing at night. A filled stomach is no good for singing. Hehe. Oh wells, it was worth it after all. x)
Started being busy with the practices since Wednesday, if im not mistaken (it seems so long ago!). The competition was then held on Saturday night. We sang Memori Tercipta and Price Tag and all three of us played guitar while singing. It was really an enjoyable moment in front thanks to all who had came to support! Met lots of unique people at the back stage too!
There were 24 groups altogether in the comp. So yeah, pretty a lot of competitors so we didn't expect too much on being selected for the finals! Lo and behold, the committee called me on Sunday morning informing us that we got selected! I was in church service and am glad i didn't shout too loud because of that! :D
So, on Sunday night we performed again. Only 6 groups got chosen. At first, wanted to change our songs but in the end, we had not enough time to do much except to add on 'When You Look Me in the Eyes' song. It was not that bad! But well, the performance on Sunday wasn't as nice as Saturday. Probably we were pretty nervous as it was final! But Yvonne got the rap thing alright! It went quite well!
Well, in the end, the result came out and we got second!! The first is also from our college, the nasyid team! So my college sapu-ed all the group prizes! :P Not bad! Kinda happy at least we can get a placing! And the most important is experience, the memory and the skill learnt!
So yeah, with all that was said, what has all of these got to do with me eating biscuits for 2 days? I simply didn't have any time for lunch! And we couldn't take dinner because had to sing at night. A filled stomach is no good for singing. Hehe. Oh wells, it was worth it after all. x)
Friday, November 18, 2011
Special
Seizing the chance to update now in the library while waiting for the others for the next forum meeting! The days this week had been hectic ones. As usual i guess. Have to get used to the full timetable and constant flow of exams, presentations and assignmnents. This time with music practices. Hopefully my consistency level will be increased! Despite of such busyness, i'm lovin' it! Though of course, at times, i felt pretty lazy and wanted to just sleep it off, i feel productive and satisfied. But ahh, how i wish i have more time for all things! Better time management? Hmm..one thing i realise, my rate of doing things are deteriorating. I need more time to do the same amount of work than last time! Gotta improve on that. Oh well, enough of self-reminding post.=P
Anyway, this week is quite a ..... Weird? Special? Faith-and-love challenging week? There is indeed some changes around. In terms of friendship, vision, faith i believe. Earlier in this week, God has reminded me to look to Him in all that i do and He shall being prosper to whatever i am to do. He gave it in a vision to my pastor during worship where i was seen standing alone in a very BIG garden. Everything around me was pretty dull. But when i look up to God and stretch my hands to Him, everything around me, the flowers in the garden etc came to life and became a very beautiful garden. Then he said, God is with me. I was really touched by such honor that God give him this vision of me. It is very assuring. Yet again, at that time, i was like laughing at myself because how could i have forgotten that He is every bit interested in my life, again? Thank You Jesus!
Not going back hometown this weekend. Tomorrow will be having singing competition! Wish me the best! :DD
Anyway, this week is quite a ..... Weird? Special? Faith-and-love challenging week? There is indeed some changes around. In terms of friendship, vision, faith i believe. Earlier in this week, God has reminded me to look to Him in all that i do and He shall being prosper to whatever i am to do. He gave it in a vision to my pastor during worship where i was seen standing alone in a very BIG garden. Everything around me was pretty dull. But when i look up to God and stretch my hands to Him, everything around me, the flowers in the garden etc came to life and became a very beautiful garden. Then he said, God is with me. I was really touched by such honor that God give him this vision of me. It is very assuring. Yet again, at that time, i was like laughing at myself because how could i have forgotten that He is every bit interested in my life, again? Thank You Jesus!
Not going back hometown this weekend. Tomorrow will be having singing competition! Wish me the best! :DD
Friday, November 11, 2011
The 'straight' day
11.11.11
What a unique day. I'm actually kind of sleepy right now but wouldnt't want to miss posting something since i missed the previous one. First, it's all 11! Second, it gives me an honest feeling, cuz it's all straight? Third, it's Single's Day! Fourth, i just like it la. Fifth, no fifth. Well, bro texted me to wait for 11.11am. But i kind of missed the sms while missing the train. So, what i did at 11.11am on 11.11.11? Missed the train. And the next one which is 11.11pm on 11.11.11? Sleeping. Yeah, i just predicted that.
So anyway, Jack came down to KL. We had Jogoya and he treated me (thanks again!). It's been like years since i stepped into that place! The food was good. Service too. Environment too. But i think last time i was able to eat more than today! No more growing. Lol. All in all, was a great lunch. Had a short walk around Pavillion and then watched 'The Adventure of Tin Tin'. Its quite a nice movie. Somehow, it reminded me of Cassie! Perhaps, both are cute? :D Initially, i thought it would just be another typical cartoon story, but in the end, the storyline was pretty unpredictable for me, which is good. Steven Spielberg ma..lol.
So, 2 more days to uni! Time flies again! But this week was pretty productive, not in terms of assignments though. Productive in fulfilling promises, helping out, rejuvenating, catching ups. So, no regrets. :) Oh, yesterday night had a yumcha session with KHS buddies. All of them are pretty much the same. It was cool to listen to their stories from uni. Hehe.
K then, no more crapping and reporting events that are boring you right now (its ok, i know). *yawn* ta'z people! Calling it a day! Hoping to wake up at dawn tomorrow! *whispers*but actually she'll just snooze the alarm clock for another 2 hours.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Scouting~
I was out to Port Dickson early this morning with Pastor Peter and Simon. It has been like..5 years i didn't go there since the last youth camp we had! I miss the beach and the sea so much!!! But somehow my impression of the beach was pretty bad. I thought it would be really dirty and that the sea water will be murky. However, today, the beach is clean! And the sea water near the beach is blueeee! Well, pastor said there are two sides of PD and Tanjung Tuan (if im not mistaken) is cleaner than the other side. So, i sort of learnt the road to PD for future sake!
Anyway, we went to three campsites along the beach. The first one was the campsite where i first went to PH youth camp! Old memories! I was in form 1 then. Never would have thought then that i would return to scout for campsite places instead!! Nice place indeed. I still remember the place near the water dispenser where they hid one of the clues for treasure hunt. =P So, the second campsite was a Hawaiian-like place. Swimming pool, swimming pool with waves!, fake parrot, atap huts.. Nice! It is beside the beach too so the view is pretty awesome! Third was Methodist Hall. My third youth camp place. Memories! But too bad it is closed down and owned by Sime Darby :( a very nice place. Still remember the campfire we made! It was also where God brought me back to Him!
After that, pastor decided to take us to see the lighthouse. I think he was missing the place a lot because he was recounting all the memories at such and such resorts, hotels. Hehe. So, reached that place and found out no car is allowed this time. Well, since we reached already, pastor decided to walk up. Paid entrance fee for us, and up we went! Found out the journey up the hill was 600m! Glad i walked a lot in uni so was able to reeach the top. Haha. It was pretty hot too! The scenery above was amazing. But too bad the lighthouse was restricted. So, just went around it. Rest for a while on top, and then went down again. Was so hungry by then. Went to makan in one of the restaurants and pastor treated us. Had sate too! Fulfilled la!
So back to Kajang at about 3pm and went to cut my hair!! Couldnt't stand the messiness dy so decided to cut a little short. And outcome is kinda very short! Lol! Not that nice though. I feel my face too squarish already now. Oh wells, i dont't mind as long as im freed from all of those messiness! Im frrreeeed! :D
All in all, owned the day x)
Anyway, we went to three campsites along the beach. The first one was the campsite where i first went to PH youth camp! Old memories! I was in form 1 then. Never would have thought then that i would return to scout for campsite places instead!! Nice place indeed. I still remember the place near the water dispenser where they hid one of the clues for treasure hunt. =P So, the second campsite was a Hawaiian-like place. Swimming pool, swimming pool with waves!, fake parrot, atap huts.. Nice! It is beside the beach too so the view is pretty awesome! Third was Methodist Hall. My third youth camp place. Memories! But too bad it is closed down and owned by Sime Darby :( a very nice place. Still remember the campfire we made! It was also where God brought me back to Him!
After that, pastor decided to take us to see the lighthouse. I think he was missing the place a lot because he was recounting all the memories at such and such resorts, hotels. Hehe. So, reached that place and found out no car is allowed this time. Well, since we reached already, pastor decided to walk up. Paid entrance fee for us, and up we went! Found out the journey up the hill was 600m! Glad i walked a lot in uni so was able to reeach the top. Haha. It was pretty hot too! The scenery above was amazing. But too bad the lighthouse was restricted. So, just went around it. Rest for a while on top, and then went down again. Was so hungry by then. Went to makan in one of the restaurants and pastor treated us. Had sate too! Fulfilled la!
So back to Kajang at about 3pm and went to cut my hair!! Couldnt't stand the messiness dy so decided to cut a little short. And outcome is kinda very short! Lol! Not that nice though. I feel my face too squarish already now. Oh wells, i dont't mind as long as im freed from all of those messiness! Im frrreeeed! :D
All in all, owned the day x)
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Geeky session
I realised i've been updating blog quite frequently since i started uni! Compared to the previous months. So good right?
Well, had a relaxing day today. Sort of. Brought the 'kukurus' out from their 'cage'. Hehe. Cute bunch of people, my cell members. We watched Real Steel, for me, again! So, couldn't help sleeping in the middle of it but enjoyed the last few scenes. After that, Daphne and Erin got hyped up on those nerdy-geeky-lensless specs! In the end, all of us bought the specs for fun! Lol~ i bought two. Had always wanted one of those anyway. So now, we're going to wear them during some of cell meetings. B)
Oh wells, after being out for 4 consecutive days, i'm going to stay home all day for good tomorrow! :D... And force myself to do assignments tomorrow! D: ...life? :P
Well, had a relaxing day today. Sort of. Brought the 'kukurus' out from their 'cage'. Hehe. Cute bunch of people, my cell members. We watched Real Steel, for me, again! So, couldn't help sleeping in the middle of it but enjoyed the last few scenes. After that, Daphne and Erin got hyped up on those nerdy-geeky-lensless specs! In the end, all of us bought the specs for fun! Lol~ i bought two. Had always wanted one of those anyway. So now, we're going to wear them during some of cell meetings. B)
Oh wells, after being out for 4 consecutive days, i'm going to stay home all day for good tomorrow! :D... And force myself to do assignments tomorrow! D: ...life? :P
Sweet sadness
Is there such a thing called sweet sadness? I think there might be! :) a sadness yet enveloped with hope! That's what im feeling right now. Just had a meet up with Jo-lyn, Vincent, Kah Hong and Ben in MV. After one and a half year? Its really time for that! Missed them so much and all their jokes and company! Only managed to contact through FB chats. Well, they didn't really change much except a little mature in the inside? Lol. I don't know when i'll get to meet with them again. My timetable clashed with theirs. But, i know we'll meet again.
This week, one of the things i learnt is to make the most out of every situation. Though the thing or situation may be rather crappy, i find that there will always be a life lesson out of it. Whatever that is given, make the best out of it and appreciate every moment in the process. Easier said huh? Well,i know it is very easy to say, but with a heart full of thanksgiving to God, it is practically impossible to feel that.
Alright, looks like another 6 days before uni! Should i follow Arnan's footsteps in those very very weird sleeping pattern? Like taking naps instead of sleep, shorten sleeping time, in order to do assignments and study? Lol. Well, I think...uhh....the longest i may be able to commit to such plan is one day! I'll definitely drop dead the next day. Glad im not an NUS student huh? :P bless that guy~
Oh, had captain ball last Saturday. It was fun! But too bad i couldnt join.D: Muscles were aching due to the dance practice and then carrying of bags. I could only watch and be the time and score keeper! Hope we'll organize this again in the near future!
This week, one of the things i learnt is to make the most out of every situation. Though the thing or situation may be rather crappy, i find that there will always be a life lesson out of it. Whatever that is given, make the best out of it and appreciate every moment in the process. Easier said huh? Well,i know it is very easy to say, but with a heart full of thanksgiving to God, it is practically impossible to feel that.
Alright, looks like another 6 days before uni! Should i follow Arnan's footsteps in those very very weird sleeping pattern? Like taking naps instead of sleep, shorten sleeping time, in order to do assignments and study? Lol. Well, I think...uhh....the longest i may be able to commit to such plan is one day! I'll definitely drop dead the next day. Glad im not an NUS student huh? :P bless that guy~
Oh, had captain ball last Saturday. It was fun! But too bad i couldnt join.D: Muscles were aching due to the dance practice and then carrying of bags. I could only watch and be the time and score keeper! Hope we'll organize this again in the near future!
Saturday, November 5, 2011
"You just got to swim like a man"
Supposed to be sleeping now, but thought of blogging for a while. Had a gruelling day in the train today. Everyone rushed back home and so, it was so packed! I guess, this comic strip below truly describes how it was today.
SPARTAAANSSS!!
Like seriously.
When i reached Mid Valley station, i couldn't get out of the train initially. I had to really SWIM through the crowd, the opposing crowd through the door. I tried soooo hard until my bag ripped open without me realising. And it was still opened wide after i stepped like a hundred steps until i felt something was not right due to the pressure the bag gave. I turned around and i was like, oh my gosh! And all the while, no one even tried to tell me. I think they just stared. Tsk tsk. I don't know whether anything had dropped, but i think no. Thank God i decided to put all the stuffs in my other bag except my clothes.
Really don't understand why they just can't let the people inside go out first before entering. Ain't that easy?
SPARTAAANSSS!!
Like seriously.
When i reached Mid Valley station, i couldn't get out of the train initially. I had to really SWIM through the crowd, the opposing crowd through the door. I tried soooo hard until my bag ripped open without me realising. And it was still opened wide after i stepped like a hundred steps until i felt something was not right due to the pressure the bag gave. I turned around and i was like, oh my gosh! And all the while, no one even tried to tell me. I think they just stared. Tsk tsk. I don't know whether anything had dropped, but i think no. Thank God i decided to put all the stuffs in my other bag except my clothes.
Really don't understand why they just can't let the people inside go out first before entering. Ain't that easy?
Friday, November 4, 2011
The Joy
This week passes particularly fast. Faster than the previous weeks indeed. I don't think it is a good thing. I don't want the time to pass too fast.
Well, this week was filled with many things. Tests, assignments date line, meetings. At last i'm going to pass up my Reading Skills portfolio tomorrow. The joy~ :D
Yesterday, there was a vocal audition for my college and though i knew about it only that morning, i went anyway. It seems that i would be able to secure a place in hostel in semester 3 if i'm chosen. We waited for the judges until we felt bored and simply jammed songs with guitars. It was quite an enjoyable moment. I'm lucky to have some friends who love singing in the same college and same semester. In the end, the judge came and she told us we're all selected. Lol. Just like that. The joy~ :D
I went to Secret Recipe in Tg. Malim at last with Jack, Charlotte and Ken. We walked there from Tmn. Bernam. Well, walking towards the restaurant was not that bad, but walking back towards the campus bus stop was a little harder. However, it was worth it. On the way there too, i managed to drop by Yik Mun, AT LAST, to buy THE famous paos. The paos that everyone has been talking about! I find that the paos were pretty normal, and i think i could even get tastier paos in Kajang. But anyhow, still, the joy~ :D
Well, this week was filled with many things. Tests, assignments date line, meetings. At last i'm going to pass up my Reading Skills portfolio tomorrow. The joy~ :D
Yesterday, there was a vocal audition for my college and though i knew about it only that morning, i went anyway. It seems that i would be able to secure a place in hostel in semester 3 if i'm chosen. We waited for the judges until we felt bored and simply jammed songs with guitars. It was quite an enjoyable moment. I'm lucky to have some friends who love singing in the same college and same semester. In the end, the judge came and she told us we're all selected. Lol. Just like that. The joy~ :D
I went to Secret Recipe in Tg. Malim at last with Jack, Charlotte and Ken. We walked there from Tmn. Bernam. Well, walking towards the restaurant was not that bad, but walking back towards the campus bus stop was a little harder. However, it was worth it. On the way there too, i managed to drop by Yik Mun, AT LAST, to buy THE famous paos. The paos that everyone has been talking about! I find that the paos were pretty normal, and i think i could even get tastier paos in Kajang. But anyhow, still, the joy~ :D
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
THE significant one
Ahh..i wanted to post something - anything- on these two significant dates which are 31st October and 1st November, but i didn't get to! D: Wasted! Why is 31st October significant? Well, i've always loved the month of October..somehow. 1st November because it was 1.11.11! How cool is that? Anyways, though i didn't get to post anything on both days, i managed to printscreen this!
Its 1.11.11 at 11.11PM! :D vain huh? boo yeah~
So, yesteday i just had my Sahsiah test in an auditorium. Somehow it felt so weird to sit there and take a test. But i liked it. :P
Nothing much till now. Good daaaayy! :D
Its 1.11.11 at 11.11PM! :D vain huh? boo yeah~
So, yesteday i just had my Sahsiah test in an auditorium. Somehow it felt so weird to sit there and take a test. But i liked it. :P
Nothing much till now. Good daaaayy! :D
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Unconditionally!
Planetshakers concert was awesome! But it didn't last as long as i thought it would! Well, too bad also i don't really know the songs. Still, worshipping God with so many other brothers and sisters in Christ was one of the greatest feeling one can get! It just felt like being in heaven where you sing praise and worship songs together with all the saints towards our King, Jesus! The sermon was hilarious too. Well, one thing that the pastor spoke went right into my heart again like a reminder, or a nudge, or a bang! Its this. Jesus loves unconditionally. He...loves....unconditionally..... Unconditionally.
Well, i am actually struggling with issues regarding on how much i've given yet i'm not appreciated. And on how much i've been stepped on due to my "lembutness" (sort of). Well, it has always been the constant thing i'm facing. I contribute and yet either no one knows, or they just think i'm supposed to do it since im supposed to be the "good" one, or they just don't care. Then as time goes by, i slowly become selfish and protect my own needs first. Im not proud of this. I guess its some kind of self defense. No matter what, it is still bad, and it enters like a poison. But what i want to say here is that, GOD LOVES UNCONDITIONALLY! I've known this since a long time ago, and it has always been a constant message. You can see it on car stickers, song lyrics etc. Yet, today, these words spoke so much to me and i was directed to these issues im facing. He has loved me even when i rejected Him. He has loved me even when i don't care of His Words. He has loved me even when i'm ashamed of Him. He has loved me even when i take His love for granted..... If there's anyone who don't deserve His love, it should be ME! And yet, He loves me.......
It says, "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life."[John3:16]
Can i love others like that too? Can i love unconditionally? He's still dealing with me and i pray that i'll surrender unto Him in this matter!
Anyway, sorry if i sound preachy. I'm just feeling so much of His joy right now. On how He loves everyone!
God bless! :D
Well, i am actually struggling with issues regarding on how much i've given yet i'm not appreciated. And on how much i've been stepped on due to my "lembutness" (sort of). Well, it has always been the constant thing i'm facing. I contribute and yet either no one knows, or they just think i'm supposed to do it since im supposed to be the "good" one, or they just don't care. Then as time goes by, i slowly become selfish and protect my own needs first. Im not proud of this. I guess its some kind of self defense. No matter what, it is still bad, and it enters like a poison. But what i want to say here is that, GOD LOVES UNCONDITIONALLY! I've known this since a long time ago, and it has always been a constant message. You can see it on car stickers, song lyrics etc. Yet, today, these words spoke so much to me and i was directed to these issues im facing. He has loved me even when i rejected Him. He has loved me even when i don't care of His Words. He has loved me even when i'm ashamed of Him. He has loved me even when i take His love for granted..... If there's anyone who don't deserve His love, it should be ME! And yet, He loves me.......
It says, "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life."[John3:16]
Can i love others like that too? Can i love unconditionally? He's still dealing with me and i pray that i'll surrender unto Him in this matter!
Anyway, sorry if i sound preachy. I'm just feeling so much of His joy right now. On how He loves everyone!
God bless! :D
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Broken eggs on ground
Yesterday was my first day of being out of home after a full one week! Me and another friend of mine tried to give a surprise birthday celebration to two of my friends but it looked like they were not that surprised after all. :( Ruin my high expectation and preparation. Like having broken eggs on ground.
Anyways, after that, watched Real Steel at last after so many of high recommendations from friends. The beginning of it was not that interesting until the middle where it caught my attention. I think i might have acted as if the cinema was my home. =P
I have 1 and a half more day left before uni starts! Glad that i'm almost done with my portfolio. Finished all the GOs and vocab works. Left 4 more reflections to go which i think should be alright. Well, i'm yet to study for the coming test on Tuesday though!
Going to Planetshakers concert later! I'm not really that excited yet. Probably it has not sunk in yet. I guess i will in an hour. Well, will blog about it probably tomorrow! :)
Anyways, after that, watched Real Steel at last after so many of high recommendations from friends. The beginning of it was not that interesting until the middle where it caught my attention. I think i might have acted as if the cinema was my home. =P
I have 1 and a half more day left before uni starts! Glad that i'm almost done with my portfolio. Finished all the GOs and vocab works. Left 4 more reflections to go which i think should be alright. Well, i'm yet to study for the coming test on Tuesday though!
Going to Planetshakers concert later! I'm not really that excited yet. Probably it has not sunk in yet. I guess i will in an hour. Well, will blog about it probably tomorrow! :)
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Aja!
Recently, I saw a post in FB that says
Immediately i was reminded of God's unconditional love! Indeed the line is very beautiful and touching. Despite of all shortcomings and repeated failures, He still look upon His children with love. How do i deserve that? I don't. But still, He loves me. And you too. :)
Anyway, i found out just yesterday that all of my sickness in the last couple of days are due to my low blood pressure! I've been having that for years but this time, it was lower than usual. Thus all the dizziness, headaches, stiff neck and fever.Why i assume it was because of that? Mum gave me iron to drink on Monday, and i felt much better. My fever subsided too after that and i don't feel too stiff-necked or terrible headache. I still have a little of dizziness but it's not really that bad now. Glad i know the cause.
Well, i didn't know i have to deal seriously with low blood pressure but i guess i have to now. Read all the side-effects of it and they are simply no good. Plus im too young for all of these to happen now. One of the side-effects is confusion! D: That's me. It seems the lack of blood to the brain affect the thinking process and in storing memories.
I guess, it's time for me to put on my mask, and be in this real combat! B)
Immediately i was reminded of God's unconditional love! Indeed the line is very beautiful and touching. Despite of all shortcomings and repeated failures, He still look upon His children with love. How do i deserve that? I don't. But still, He loves me. And you too. :)
Anyway, i found out just yesterday that all of my sickness in the last couple of days are due to my low blood pressure! I've been having that for years but this time, it was lower than usual. Thus all the dizziness, headaches, stiff neck and fever.Why i assume it was because of that? Mum gave me iron to drink on Monday, and i felt much better. My fever subsided too after that and i don't feel too stiff-necked or terrible headache. I still have a little of dizziness but it's not really that bad now. Glad i know the cause.
Well, i didn't know i have to deal seriously with low blood pressure but i guess i have to now. Read all the side-effects of it and they are simply no good. Plus im too young for all of these to happen now. One of the side-effects is confusion! D: That's me. It seems the lack of blood to the brain affect the thinking process and in storing memories.
I guess, it's time for me to put on my mask, and be in this real combat! B)
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
ahhh
I find myself smiling today while listening to songs by Frank Sinatra. Ahh, love his songs. <3 I was simply imagining that i'm at the streets in Paris, or Florence or London or Salzburg, enjoying the view. Like i'm really staying there, that the cafe behind of me is mine, that i'm not just a mere tourist but permanent resident. Bliss :D Day dreaming in the middle of the day huh? i like..
Ah, back to earth. I have not progressed on my assignments yet. *puts dramatic sound effect* I've been hunting lots of songs in the past two days and watching movies and lazing around. With my past experience of not feeling the emergency state eventhough the red light is blinking right in front of my eyes and the alarm sounding noisily in the background, i've got to shake myself into being panic. P.A.N.I.C. Panic enough to get me moving. But hmm, as im typing this, i'm still not feeling it yet. Lol.
I'm feeling better the last two days. But i don't know why i'm still running a fever between 37-38 degree. Still a little headache and dizzy. These few days, people have been asking me how am i and i think i'm boring them by giving the same kind of answer. Kinda pity them to have to hear all of that. Hehe. I think i even bored myself!
Ah, back to earth. I have not progressed on my assignments yet. *puts dramatic sound effect* I've been hunting lots of songs in the past two days and watching movies and lazing around. With my past experience of not feeling the emergency state eventhough the red light is blinking right in front of my eyes and the alarm sounding noisily in the background, i've got to shake myself into being panic. P.A.N.I.C. Panic enough to get me moving. But hmm, as im typing this, i'm still not feeling it yet. Lol.
I'm feeling better the last two days. But i don't know why i'm still running a fever between 37-38 degree. Still a little headache and dizzy. These few days, people have been asking me how am i and i think i'm boring them by giving the same kind of answer. Kinda pity them to have to hear all of that. Hehe. I think i even bored myself!
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Thoughtfulness
I'm still in almost the same condition as yesterday. Its actually pretty dynamic. At times, i don't feel that bad, then it takes a downward turn towards the worse. When will this end? Bleeeaaarrrggh.
Well, even though this has detered me from some plans, i'm not going to let it deters ALL of my plans. Those that require lesser energy especially. Not assignments! They're gruelling! Lol.
Just now i read a blog post somewhere where the blogger complained about certain things regarding his certain friends. The blog was in public, as in anyone can view it even the ones he was complaining about. It was pretty obvious who he was referring to. So, the friend saw it and she commented. It was also obvious she was hurt by what he said through the comment she wrote.
This makes me think, is it worth it to say whatever you want in a public blog and hurt the ones reading it? Is it appropriate to say all of these? Maybe the blogger was feeling intense feelings about the whole thing, but i think, some things are meant to be kept quiet or tolerated and be left as it is. Or if you want to voice out your opinion, just talk to the person straight instead of telling the person indirectly through a public blog. If you don't want to do something, just say no and move on. You don't have to leave a trace of resentment on the way out. Lol. I'm not going to explain what was the story about. If you're confused, then ... be confused laah =P Well, with all that was said, i hope i didn't make the same mistake! In case you're wondering, the person doesn't read my blog. Hehe.
Anyway, coming back home with a sick body is in a way torturing! There are so many food i want to eat! Lol. 8 more days to recover!
God bless~ :)
Well, even though this has detered me from some plans, i'm not going to let it deters ALL of my plans. Those that require lesser energy especially. Not assignments! They're gruelling! Lol.
Just now i read a blog post somewhere where the blogger complained about certain things regarding his certain friends. The blog was in public, as in anyone can view it even the ones he was complaining about. It was pretty obvious who he was referring to. So, the friend saw it and she commented. It was also obvious she was hurt by what he said through the comment she wrote.
This makes me think, is it worth it to say whatever you want in a public blog and hurt the ones reading it? Is it appropriate to say all of these? Maybe the blogger was feeling intense feelings about the whole thing, but i think, some things are meant to be kept quiet or tolerated and be left as it is. Or if you want to voice out your opinion, just talk to the person straight instead of telling the person indirectly through a public blog. If you don't want to do something, just say no and move on. You don't have to leave a trace of resentment on the way out. Lol. I'm not going to explain what was the story about. If you're confused, then ... be confused laah =P Well, with all that was said, i hope i didn't make the same mistake! In case you're wondering, the person doesn't read my blog. Hehe.
Anyway, coming back home with a sick body is in a way torturing! There are so many food i want to eat! Lol. 8 more days to recover!
God bless~ :)
Friday, October 21, 2011
Burning
In my previous post, I stated that I was feeling pretty unwell. Yesterday night was the worst where I woke up feeling so hot like never before and body aching and shivering. I woke up and tried to walk to the bathroom for some wet cloth to cool down my body but I couldn't really walk properly. I had to focus every step I took to reach to and fro the bathroom. In the end, I popped in a Panadol pill and the fever subsided in the morning. Though was a little dizzy by the end of my Reading Skills class, thank God I managed to make it to college, to campus, to KTM station, to Rawang station and then to Kajang!
I was feeling pretty dizzy by the time I reached home and body ached again, with some other symptoms. So I went to the doctor. He checked my body temperature and it was over 38 degree Celsius! I didn't even realized I was having fever when I got home. I guess yesterday night, my body temperature must be over 40 degree because I was so burning up and I thought I was gonna go blind! Glad I'm still alive...wow. I remember when I was a kid, my body temperature reached 42 degree and I was blessed to not die or go mentally retarded or blind. Anyway, after checking some other stuffs, he told me I am having viral fever. So yeah. There goes my plans for this weekend. =( am supposed to go Logos ship this Sunday too but I guess I'm not in the condition. Sad. I've never been to the ship before. Oh wells. I guess it's fortunate of me to not fall sick during Planetshakers concert! Hopefully will be ok by then. Ta'z people, and take good care!
P/s: this is my first post using my iPad2! :D opened the box today..bliss~
I was feeling pretty dizzy by the time I reached home and body ached again, with some other symptoms. So I went to the doctor. He checked my body temperature and it was over 38 degree Celsius! I didn't even realized I was having fever when I got home. I guess yesterday night, my body temperature must be over 40 degree because I was so burning up and I thought I was gonna go blind! Glad I'm still alive...wow. I remember when I was a kid, my body temperature reached 42 degree and I was blessed to not die or go mentally retarded or blind. Anyway, after checking some other stuffs, he told me I am having viral fever. So yeah. There goes my plans for this weekend. =( am supposed to go Logos ship this Sunday too but I guess I'm not in the condition. Sad. I've never been to the ship before. Oh wells. I guess it's fortunate of me to not fall sick during Planetshakers concert! Hopefully will be ok by then. Ta'z people, and take good care!
P/s: this is my first post using my iPad2! :D opened the box today..bliss~
Thursday, October 20, 2011
knock knock
I'm supposed to be doing my GOs (Graphic Organizers) now but i'm just too lazy. The weather is so cooling and my bones are paining right now! I've never had such pains before. It started from yesterday after i got drenched with the rain. After that, suddenly i had twice of shot-up fever. One yesterday night and one this afternoon. In the end, i just couldn't stand it so i took a Panadol. =( Well, at least the fever has left me. Left headache, dizziness and bone pain. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Long journey in train with bone pain will be very suffering.
Yesterday too i had my first session of jamming with Jack! We found a really good room in the campus. At last! But carrying guitar to campus from afternoon is pretty tiring and embarassing. Well, at least the end result was good! Had lots of fun.
I'm done with exams and presentations for now. Only for one week though. After next week, the exams resume. D: But am glad that some of the presentations are done with because my groups were chosen to be the earlier ones to present. (More to we drew lots and my groups got the earlier turns) hehe.
Oh, one more update, a few days ago, i gave in to buying an iPad 2. Lol. I find it pretty useful and i was thinking since i don't have a nice phone, why not get an iPad? =P And it arrived this morning! Mum called and now i'm so excited to go home tomorrow! :D
Another update, just want to say again, prayer is indeed powerful! :) Many times we may not see the result in the beginning, but in the end of the day, miracles do happen! In a way you may or may not realise until the end. So just wanna encourage fellow Christians who read this blog to never cease praying and not to give up when things seem bleak. God bless peepah! :DD
Yesterday too i had my first session of jamming with Jack! We found a really good room in the campus. At last! But carrying guitar to campus from afternoon is pretty tiring and embarassing. Well, at least the end result was good! Had lots of fun.
I'm done with exams and presentations for now. Only for one week though. After next week, the exams resume. D: But am glad that some of the presentations are done with because my groups were chosen to be the earlier ones to present. (More to we drew lots and my groups got the earlier turns) hehe.
Oh, one more update, a few days ago, i gave in to buying an iPad 2. Lol. I find it pretty useful and i was thinking since i don't have a nice phone, why not get an iPad? =P And it arrived this morning! Mum called and now i'm so excited to go home tomorrow! :D
Another update, just want to say again, prayer is indeed powerful! :) Many times we may not see the result in the beginning, but in the end of the day, miracles do happen! In a way you may or may not realise until the end. So just wanna encourage fellow Christians who read this blog to never cease praying and not to give up when things seem bleak. God bless peepah! :DD
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
tough
There are many things in my life that i just do not understand. Why am i always in this kind of situation? Why does this always happen to me? Why am i always falling back to the same pitying place? Why am i placed in that group? Why am i there when i'm supposedly to be in the other? Why do i have to shoulder all of these? Why don't i have a normal life for once? Is it because of me myself? My actions?
But many of those are simply out of my hands. Am i the only person who feel that way? Maybe not, but im sure there're not a lot (or perhaps i'm just ignorant?).Well, some are heavy stuffs and some perhaps may seem pretty trivial or laughable if shared, but if they affect me, it's not something for me to look over and be ignorant about, burying all of those feelings which will indeed resurface again in the future. I've learnt and am still learning not to neglect my feelings, not to let all of them to destroy me, but to deal with them, to cut the roots of all that're damaging due to situations that arised. I know i may not be able to change the situations that are out of my hands, but i believe something good may arise out of them though i may not know till the end. The only thing that i can do is to repent of all bitterness towards everything and change my way of seeing thing to the way of how God sees.
What i have now is to trust that God has a plan for me even in these kind of situations. In fact, i KNOW i'm not out of His sovereignty and i KNOW, even in this mess, He is in control. I want to take all of these and accept them as trainings from God. Situations that can help me to allow God's grace to work in my life. It's hard not to blame or complain or be bitter about all of these but i think when the going gets tough, its the time when i can grow more by going through the sharpening. Sharpening hurts a pencil, but in the end of the process, the pencil is fit to be used, right? The only problem is allowing God to do that. Oh, i'll have to let down all the pride in me! The selfishness, the envious feelings. Help me, Lord, to submit to whatever that is and is to come. Sorry people if i failed. I'm still learning.
But many of those are simply out of my hands. Am i the only person who feel that way? Maybe not, but im sure there're not a lot (or perhaps i'm just ignorant?).Well, some are heavy stuffs and some perhaps may seem pretty trivial or laughable if shared, but if they affect me, it's not something for me to look over and be ignorant about, burying all of those feelings which will indeed resurface again in the future. I've learnt and am still learning not to neglect my feelings, not to let all of them to destroy me, but to deal with them, to cut the roots of all that're damaging due to situations that arised. I know i may not be able to change the situations that are out of my hands, but i believe something good may arise out of them though i may not know till the end. The only thing that i can do is to repent of all bitterness towards everything and change my way of seeing thing to the way of how God sees.
What i have now is to trust that God has a plan for me even in these kind of situations. In fact, i KNOW i'm not out of His sovereignty and i KNOW, even in this mess, He is in control. I want to take all of these and accept them as trainings from God. Situations that can help me to allow God's grace to work in my life. It's hard not to blame or complain or be bitter about all of these but i think when the going gets tough, its the time when i can grow more by going through the sharpening. Sharpening hurts a pencil, but in the end of the process, the pencil is fit to be used, right? The only problem is allowing God to do that. Oh, i'll have to let down all the pride in me! The selfishness, the envious feelings. Help me, Lord, to submit to whatever that is and is to come. Sorry people if i failed. I'm still learning.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
inhumane
Recently i watched a video regarding a young boy who was about 5 years old. He was hit by a van and abandoned at the road. The driver did not stop to send the boy to the hospital. Instead he or she just continued to run over the boy. This is not the saddest part yet.
The saddest part is that after that, there were so SO SOOOO many people passing the boy who was lying on the road with broken body and smashed legs - bleeding all over the place and yet DID NOT stop to call the ambulance or DID any action to help the boy at all! They just avoid walking over the boy and passed by him without a second glance like seeing a hurt dog at the side of the road.
I was like...what the heck! THEY WERE SO FREAKING INHUMANE! What's wrong with them? Not only that, a second van came after the first van and the driver ran over the boy AGAIN! OMGEEE! A third van followed and the driver avoided driving over the boy but did not stop by to help him. Ugh!
By that point, i was like totally mad (still am!) with those people. They're not human at all. After some time, a lady rubbish collector who was dumping the rubbish noticed the boy. She hesitated a little in the beginning whether to help or not but in the end, she carried the boy and lifted him off the middle of the road to the side. and.........guess what......she just LEFT HIM THERE AFTER THAT!!! I was even boiling by then! D=<
How can anyone do that? How can anyone even have the heart to do that? I couldn't watch anymore after this point. It was so INHUMANE!!! Again what's wrong with them? In the end, another lady in her 30s saw the boy and quickly carried him to the hospital....
Sigh..looking and hearing at all of these stories really make me astounded and reminded at how capable human can sin. Of how corrupted humans are. Even babies. Humans are indeed incapable of saving themselves from all of these mess. Only Miracles can.
The saddest part is that after that, there were so SO SOOOO many people passing the boy who was lying on the road with broken body and smashed legs - bleeding all over the place and yet DID NOT stop to call the ambulance or DID any action to help the boy at all! They just avoid walking over the boy and passed by him without a second glance like seeing a hurt dog at the side of the road.
I was like...what the heck! THEY WERE SO FREAKING INHUMANE! What's wrong with them? Not only that, a second van came after the first van and the driver ran over the boy AGAIN! OMGEEE! A third van followed and the driver avoided driving over the boy but did not stop by to help him. Ugh!
By that point, i was like totally mad (still am!) with those people. They're not human at all. After some time, a lady rubbish collector who was dumping the rubbish noticed the boy. She hesitated a little in the beginning whether to help or not but in the end, she carried the boy and lifted him off the middle of the road to the side. and.........guess what......she just LEFT HIM THERE AFTER THAT!!! I was even boiling by then! D=<
How can anyone do that? How can anyone even have the heart to do that? I couldn't watch anymore after this point. It was so INHUMANE!!! Again what's wrong with them? In the end, another lady in her 30s saw the boy and quickly carried him to the hospital....
Sigh..looking and hearing at all of these stories really make me astounded and reminded at how capable human can sin. Of how corrupted humans are. Even babies. Humans are indeed incapable of saving themselves from all of these mess. Only Miracles can.
A close call
It had been a hectic day yesterday. I didn't even have time to update my blog. And now im updating on the bus! :P Well, yesterday was my exam and presentation day for both of my classes. So, started my journey from home since 9.30am. Supposed to go out at 9am but had some miscommunication with dad so it was a lil bit late. Nevertheless, when i reached the station, i had to wait for another 20mins. The train was delayed or perhaps the previous train had just passed. So yeah. It was still alright that time. Then, after an approximately one hour journey, i reached Rawang station at about 11.15am. One thing that is very funny. Previously, all of my journeys especially the transit from Rawang train to Tg Malim train were really smooth. Whenever i reached Rawang station from Kajang, the train to Tg Malim would always be there waiting for me. Thus, i've always thought the trains were pretty frequent. However, the opposite happened yesterday (of all days!) when i couldn't afford to be late! I had to wait for another 45 minutes because the next scheduled train was to arrive at 12pm! Wow..kind of worried already because it would take me another hour to reach plus all of the inbetween journeys might take some time (station to campus, campus to hostel, hostel to PC) AND my class was starting at 2pm!
I calmed myself down and tried to look at it as achievable. Slept throughout the journey and also tried to memorize my script for the oral presentation. The people on the train must had thought i was crazy because i was like talking to myself all the way in commuter and the train. Hehe.
Anyway, in the end, i took a taxi from station instead of the uni bus to campus. After that, had to wait for about another 20 mins for the bus to arrive at campus. I didnt manage to go back hostel to put my bags so i had to bring them all around. Thank God that for this week i'd decided to bring my netbook home thus it was with me.
Oh well, talking about my exam and presentation. I don't know what to say about it. Don't know what positive things to say about it. All i can say is that i guess i've tried my best. For the exam, it was pretty ok but i know i made some mistakes or put in the wrong answer. Just couldn't think of other answers. For oral, it was..pretty bad. I kept forgetting what i was going to say so had to refer to my script a couple of times. Sigh. Hope to do better next time.
After all that was said, I'm still glad that two of the exams and presentations are over! Time to prepare for the coming ones! :) Good day to all of you!
I calmed myself down and tried to look at it as achievable. Slept throughout the journey and also tried to memorize my script for the oral presentation. The people on the train must had thought i was crazy because i was like talking to myself all the way in commuter and the train. Hehe.
Anyway, in the end, i took a taxi from station instead of the uni bus to campus. After that, had to wait for about another 20 mins for the bus to arrive at campus. I didnt manage to go back hostel to put my bags so i had to bring them all around. Thank God that for this week i'd decided to bring my netbook home thus it was with me.
Oh well, talking about my exam and presentation. I don't know what to say about it. Don't know what positive things to say about it. All i can say is that i guess i've tried my best. For the exam, it was pretty ok but i know i made some mistakes or put in the wrong answer. Just couldn't think of other answers. For oral, it was..pretty bad. I kept forgetting what i was going to say so had to refer to my script a couple of times. Sigh. Hope to do better next time.
After all that was said, I'm still glad that two of the exams and presentations are over! Time to prepare for the coming ones! :) Good day to all of you!
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Stars and whales singing
This is really amazing.
Just want to share it to all fellow worshippers.
The whole God's creations sing to Him! All the more should we!
Just some updates.
Yesterday i went to CF, as i said in my earlier post. We had prayer walk around the campus. It only went on for 45 mins and i was paired with a Sabahan girl called Pelucan (something like this). Mostly the CF consists of Sabahans and Sarawakians. Well, at least those who came. Only me, Alice and Jared were Chinese there. I guess there're a few more but they weren't there yesterday. Anyway, though the meeting was pretty simple and short, i felt pretty "alive" again in uni. Don't really know how to explain so i won't confuse you guys with words. In conclusion, it was good! :) I think i'll be able to pick up some Bahasa because they speak in BM. Hehe.
I was back yesterday also. The journey was tiring. I'd got to wait 1 full hour for the next Rawang train. Didn't know it was that long! Perhaps i'd been blessed all these while, to arrive at the train station right on the time the train arrived! It was already 4pm by the time the train reached. Glad that i was able to sit throughout the whole journey. Sat beside a mother and her baby in the Rawang-Seremban train and the baby was so active! He just couldn't stay focus on one thing, or stay quiet for a moment at all. He kept climbing all over, pulling things out, grabbing stuffs and then throwing them away, touching bags, clothes, tudungs, and in the end, even suddenly kissed my phone after marvelling at it. Pity the mom. She had to apologize to everyone around her everytime her baby did that. Lol.
Today, we met our new youth pastor called Pastor Peter Wong. He is from Klang and is still staying there! Touched by his effort of coming here from far. Well, hope that we'll work together as a team for the better! :)
I was back yesterday also. The journey was tiring. I'd got to wait 1 full hour for the next Rawang train. Didn't know it was that long! Perhaps i'd been blessed all these while, to arrive at the train station right on the time the train arrived! It was already 4pm by the time the train reached. Glad that i was able to sit throughout the whole journey. Sat beside a mother and her baby in the Rawang-Seremban train and the baby was so active! He just couldn't stay focus on one thing, or stay quiet for a moment at all. He kept climbing all over, pulling things out, grabbing stuffs and then throwing them away, touching bags, clothes, tudungs, and in the end, even suddenly kissed my phone after marvelling at it. Pity the mom. She had to apologize to everyone around her everytime her baby did that. Lol.
Today, we met our new youth pastor called Pastor Peter Wong. He is from Klang and is still staying there! Touched by his effort of coming here from far. Well, hope that we'll work together as a team for the better! :)
Friday, October 14, 2011
10 random things i feel like doing now
Because i've nothing to do and i don't feel like starting my assignments now since i'm having something later.
1. Climb one of the mountains here in Tg Malim. (because i've been seeing it everyday and am seeing it right now through the window of the library.)
2. Buying lots of waffles and have a waffle party here in library.
3. Jam around with friends - singing, guitar, piano, SINGING WITH ALL MY HEART!!
4. Teleport to a beautiful beach and enjoy the sound of the waves while lying down on the sand with a glass of lemonade.
5. Watch a good comedy with friends who are not shy to laugh out loud.
6. Fly to different parts of Malaysia and to Perth to give surprise visits to friends.
7. Write a song with stupid lyrics with friends.
8. Eat Baskin Robbin's icecream!
9. Visit High School CF!! and TARC CF! Miss them so much and miss those times!
10. Gather those kakis and play all those games i used to play in childhood like batu seremban and getah!
Looks like there're lots of things to do with friends! Ugh! I guess i'm missing everyone right now or i need to socialize more and do something fun!
Anyways, have been feeling sleepy for the past few days. I think i've to change my sleeping pattern soon! Can't be going to lectures with a mind half shut down. Alright! CF is in 30 mins time. First time going. Wonder how will it be like. Will update when i go back Kajang today. :)
1. Climb one of the mountains here in Tg Malim. (because i've been seeing it everyday and am seeing it right now through the window of the library.)
2. Buying lots of waffles and have a waffle party here in library.
3. Jam around with friends - singing, guitar, piano, SINGING WITH ALL MY HEART!!
4. Teleport to a beautiful beach and enjoy the sound of the waves while lying down on the sand with a glass of lemonade.
5. Watch a good comedy with friends who are not shy to laugh out loud.
6. Fly to different parts of Malaysia and to Perth to give surprise visits to friends.
7. Write a song with stupid lyrics with friends.
8. Eat Baskin Robbin's icecream!
9. Visit High School CF!! and TARC CF! Miss them so much and miss those times!
10. Gather those kakis and play all those games i used to play in childhood like batu seremban and getah!
Looks like there're lots of things to do with friends! Ugh! I guess i'm missing everyone right now or i need to socialize more and do something fun!
Anyways, have been feeling sleepy for the past few days. I think i've to change my sleeping pattern soon! Can't be going to lectures with a mind half shut down. Alright! CF is in 30 mins time. First time going. Wonder how will it be like. Will update when i go back Kajang today. :)
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Care & Love
What did i learn today? I guess to make the effort to care for someone. Kinda heavy huh? Maybe. This is something that i'm still in the process of learning! Well, today me and another friend of mine went to see Dr. Goh, who is one of our TESL lecturers. He is also one of the members from the English church we attended last Sunday here. He called us for a simple chat and get-to-know session. Very warm and nice person he is! One of the examples of exerting myself to care for someone. I guess to care for someone requires effort too! I've always thought that some people are able to care without giving effort to it, but now i feel that, no matter how easy the person may show in caring, effort is indeed needed in the process!
I am reminded of the meaning of love too today. In fact, these words popped up to me while i was showering. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. How pure is love! Constantly, i've not loved as how i should. No matter who and on what situations. I know the only way for me to love is to know more of God's love AND to let it soak in me. Commitment time! :)
Actually i'm really sleepy right now and it's been a tiring day. Had dance class just now and it was pretty fun. I think i'm 5% into getting the hang of this? Lol.
God bless! :)
I am reminded of the meaning of love too today. In fact, these words popped up to me while i was showering. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. How pure is love! Constantly, i've not loved as how i should. No matter who and on what situations. I know the only way for me to love is to know more of God's love AND to let it soak in me. Commitment time! :)
Actually i'm really sleepy right now and it's been a tiring day. Had dance class just now and it was pretty fun. I think i'm 5% into getting the hang of this? Lol.
God bless! :)
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Down..down..down..down..down..
Today i had my first group presentation that carries marks. We were the first group to present and we needed to teach the other students on Lompat Tinggi. What i can say about the presentation is that it totally went down hill. Well, we had tried our best but it seemed that it was not enough. Everything was pretty dull because the students were not giving much cooperation. On top of that, more than half of them came 30 mins late so our presentation had to be shorten 30 mins! Which means a 1 and a half hour teaching became 1 hour. D: At the end of the lesson, the instructor who was giving us the marks said some stuffs that confirmed that we weren't that good. Ugh, hopefully by being first to present, we got enough 'markah kasihan' to get us through! Oh wells~ one of the factors that makes my mood pretty bad. I guess i'm just having one of my moody days today. Went vegetarian for the night. A sign of mourning? lol. Anyway, shall rejoice because at least now 1 presentation down, 3 others to go for this and next week itself! :)
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Updates on uni
It's been some time (again!) i didn't update this blog. Sorry! to whoever who're still reading this. Anyway, i'm going to update about my life here in UPSI. It's been like what, 4 weeks, im here but it feels like i've been here for months! I find this place pretty comfortable. Love the views here especially from my college (which means hostel). I can view the mountains (might not be a big deal to you though)! =P
Anyways, as you know (or don't), i'm taking TESL which is Teaching English as Second Language. There're a total of 3 groups and i'm placed in the third group. =) Well, assignments are currently flooding in and due dates are approaching. Tests are coming too in one or two weeks time and i'm not really prepared yet. Lol. Had been lazing around for the first few weeks. Probably the constant travel between Tg. Malim and Kajang every weekend makes me slower in progress on those assignments! This weekend is my first weekend of not going back and i find that i suddenly have a lot of time! Thus, i guess i'll only be going back every fortnight.
Staying back during the weekends is rather interesting because i get to visit the churches here. I went to 2 churches in these 2 days. One is a Chinese Methodist church where all of them are UPSI students and another one is Grace AOG which has English service. Planning to visit another Tamil church on the next weekend im here. They have English service though i think they sing worship songs in Tamil! Well, just check it out? =) Also recently i got to know there IS a CF in uni! Gonna check out also in this coming Friday. Lol. Heard that they're mainly consist of Sabah-ans and Sarawakians. So they use Malay in the meetings. Interesting!
Anyway, i joined the English Debate club. Just went for one meeting only though but i find it pretty interesting. I'm not good in debating but i find the meeting will help me to think more like a debater, which is good! However, almost all my friends are thinking of quitting soon! Well, shall see whether to join further. I'm also joining the Chinese Club and they have this Dance Class every Wednesday. Its really fun to see everyone dance though we don't really know how. xD Another thing i regretted not knowing earlier is about the Pancaragam! I didn't know we can join or can only join in our first semester and drop the Kokurikulum course that has been automatically registered for us! If i'd known earlier, i'd have known another musical instrument, like FLUTE or TRUMPET or TROMBONE or etc! Wasted D:
Celebrated my first birthday here in UPSI on Thursday. Went to KFC and Blue Gardens for the first time. Well, some of the friends here bought a cake for me, which was a surprise, considering that Secret Recipe is quite a distant and the packed schedule on that day. Truly enjoyed my 20th birthday! :))
Have met some good friends here along the way and am really grateful about it. Shall see where God leads me in this place. I'll update more frequently! Promise :D
Anyways, as you know (or don't), i'm taking TESL which is Teaching English as Second Language. There're a total of 3 groups and i'm placed in the third group. =) Well, assignments are currently flooding in and due dates are approaching. Tests are coming too in one or two weeks time and i'm not really prepared yet. Lol. Had been lazing around for the first few weeks. Probably the constant travel between Tg. Malim and Kajang every weekend makes me slower in progress on those assignments! This weekend is my first weekend of not going back and i find that i suddenly have a lot of time! Thus, i guess i'll only be going back every fortnight.
Staying back during the weekends is rather interesting because i get to visit the churches here. I went to 2 churches in these 2 days. One is a Chinese Methodist church where all of them are UPSI students and another one is Grace AOG which has English service. Planning to visit another Tamil church on the next weekend im here. They have English service though i think they sing worship songs in Tamil! Well, just check it out? =) Also recently i got to know there IS a CF in uni! Gonna check out also in this coming Friday. Lol. Heard that they're mainly consist of Sabah-ans and Sarawakians. So they use Malay in the meetings. Interesting!
Anyway, i joined the English Debate club. Just went for one meeting only though but i find it pretty interesting. I'm not good in debating but i find the meeting will help me to think more like a debater, which is good! However, almost all my friends are thinking of quitting soon! Well, shall see whether to join further. I'm also joining the Chinese Club and they have this Dance Class every Wednesday. Its really fun to see everyone dance though we don't really know how. xD Another thing i regretted not knowing earlier is about the Pancaragam! I didn't know we can join or can only join in our first semester and drop the Kokurikulum course that has been automatically registered for us! If i'd known earlier, i'd have known another musical instrument, like FLUTE or TRUMPET or TROMBONE or etc! Wasted D:
Celebrated my first birthday here in UPSI on Thursday. Went to KFC and Blue Gardens for the first time. Well, some of the friends here bought a cake for me, which was a surprise, considering that Secret Recipe is quite a distant and the packed schedule on that day. Truly enjoyed my 20th birthday! :))
Have met some good friends here along the way and am really grateful about it. Shall see where God leads me in this place. I'll update more frequently! Promise :D
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Nonsensical
Yeah, a new rare post. I don't know what to do now as i simply have no mood for everything for the moment. I'm pretty tired, yet i don't feel like sleeping. Perhaps i feel that another day will be gone if i allow sleep to steal away my one night. I know, pretty nonsense. But i just can't help it.
Well, today is not exactly a non-productive day compared to the other weekdays in this week. In day time, i used most of the time to draft out and write a letter to my adopted child. I should've sent a long time ago but only today i forced myself to because i know its now or never. I guess i just didn't know what to say to her or more to don't know how to exactly communicate with a 4 year old child! Anyways, the letter turned out not that bad. I hope she'll like it. Hopefully she'll keep the letter and then reread again without any help of translation.
After the letter, i drove to Ferlynne's house and waited out the rain before sitting a taxi to town. Practically sifted through all the great movies and commented on them. Hope to have a movie marathon soon. In town, Cornie picked us up together with Lil and Ling to Ampang for Korean food. Quite an enjoyable day. It's been some time. :)
Anyway, tomorrow will be the start of another weekend. Don't know why, weekends always give me the feeling of "there's something i need to do these two days but i just can't remember!". So now, i'm feeling that yet i know im just being paranoid. Still, convincing myself that i've nothing much in this weekend doesn't really help. Paranoid xD
Ugh, i can't wait for uni to start. Yet, in the same time, a little part of me wish that August wouldn't end so i don't have to go yet. A tug of war? :) Anyhow, i somehow miss assignments and the rush/busyness of all of it. Sort of exciting, like some mission. I hope i'll still feel this way when that time comes!
I know i'm totally ranting right now. Oh well, who cares. I just need to write. :)
Well, that's all for now.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Europe trip (Rome. Italy) (Second half of 11th day)
This is one of my most wanted place to visit in. Rome! I've learned and seen some of the buildings here in textbooks and so it increased my excitement when we reached the train station. Upon reaching, Rome gave me an impression of a busy city. Of course, as it's Italy's capital city and also the country's largest and most populated city! We found our hotel easily.
It was nearing dusk after we put our luggages. After that, we started our journey after asking some guidance from the receptionist.
We were actually walking towards the direction of the world famous Colosseum. My top list of to-see buildings in life! When i saw it from the distance, i couldn't help pinching myself to check whether i was in a dream or not. The sight of the Colosseum even from far literally caught my breath away. I couldn't stop smiling from ear to ear.
We hung out around the Colosseum until night fell. After that, we loitered around Rome to check out some shops and supermarkets. Rather interesting. Bought some home souvenirs. Stayed until quite late and then we headed towards the hotel.
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| Part of the city. |
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| I don't know what is this building called. Still it was magnificent with a tall tower in front of it. You can see many of great buildings and yet you don't know the name. |
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| More buildings in Rome. Expensive cars can be seen almost everywhere. |
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| one of the hundreds pictures i took of the Colosseum. |
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| i've touched the Colosseum! Lol! |
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| Beyond that is the Lost World. We didn't go in though. |
Europe trip (Florence, Italy) (First half of 11th day)
This is a much delayed post. This is supposed to be written in the month of April. I figured i should continue writing this. I think i can still remember everything i felt during the Europe journey and i didn't want it to be lost.
Continuing from Day 10. I was still in Florence, Italy the next day. We didn't know that the old buildings and churches in Florence are that amazing!
We first went to the Basilica of St Mary of the Flower (Cathedral of Santa Maria del Fiore). When we reached there, the sight took my breath away! It was so huge! So majestic! There were a lot people too. Mum bought some paintings from a guy around the area.
We continued walking, and continued to be amazed! At this point of time, we were like, "Why we took so much time in Austria?". The next famous site we went to was Piazza della Repubblica. It is a square with an arch. Ringing it are cafes. Nice place to relax in.
We left the square soon because we were just out of time. We reached a market selling leather bags made from Florence itself. It was really a waste i didn't buy one. Mum bought. It was really worth it!
We followed the crowd. Where there are the most crowds, there are the best tourist sites. So, we reached Piazza della Signoria.
There are numerous statues around the square. One of them is the famous copy of Michelangelo's David. Some of the other statues are pretty gruesome - heads torn, grotesque faces. We got to enter the building there. Around the area, or rather the famous sites in Florence, we could see many fake statues - men covered with mud or etc faking and scaring the hell out of you when they move suddenly to scratch their nose.
This Ponte Vecchio is a very old bridge and the most famous bridge in Florence. On the bridge there were shops on both sides of the bridge. Previously, they housed butchers and tanners but after that, they only allow goldsmiths and jewelers to set up their shops.
We walked and enjoyed the place quite a lot until reaching Palazzo Pitti (Pitti Palace). So happened, it gave free entrance on that day! So we entered.
The inside is actually pretty big. I'm only showing two of them.
Our time in Florence was almost up. So, sadly, we trudged back to our hotel to pick up our luggages.
The hotel we stayed in was actually a guesthouse called La Luna. In the beginning, mum and dad were annoyed that i had ordered this hotel. But well, this guethouse brought the most memory to us in our stay in Europe because of the owner of this guesthouse. He talked in a goofy kind of way and he seemed to be a good-natured person. But yet, he was pretty kiamsiap in a funny way and very business-minded.
So, that's it for Florence. :)
Continuing from Day 10. I was still in Florence, Italy the next day. We didn't know that the old buildings and churches in Florence are that amazing!
We first went to the Basilica of St Mary of the Flower (Cathedral of Santa Maria del Fiore). When we reached there, the sight took my breath away! It was so huge! So majestic! There were a lot people too. Mum bought some paintings from a guy around the area.
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| my heart leaping with joy |
We continued walking, and continued to be amazed! At this point of time, we were like, "Why we took so much time in Austria?". The next famous site we went to was Piazza della Repubblica. It is a square with an arch. Ringing it are cafes. Nice place to relax in.
We left the square soon because we were just out of time. We reached a market selling leather bags made from Florence itself. It was really a waste i didn't buy one. Mum bought. It was really worth it!
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| one of the markets. This is where i saw a leather bag and didn't buy it. |
There are numerous statues around the square. One of them is the famous copy of Michelangelo's David. Some of the other statues are pretty gruesome - heads torn, grotesque faces. We got to enter the building there. Around the area, or rather the famous sites in Florence, we could see many fake statues - men covered with mud or etc faking and scaring the hell out of you when they move suddenly to scratch their nose.
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| Very real right? |
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| at the side of the river, you can see (not in this pic though) many older folks relaxing and enjoying the sun. |
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| on the bridge. there's one part of the bridge where you can view the river and take picture. |
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| the entrance. |
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| Gives me the Babylonian feeling. |
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| the courtyard? filled with monuments and statues. |
The inside is actually pretty big. I'm only showing two of them.
Our time in Florence was almost up. So, sadly, we trudged back to our hotel to pick up our luggages.
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| Enjoyed th building during the trudging back. You can see this kind of building everywhere. |
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| We took a picture with him. |
Monday, August 1, 2011
The favourite things i own
So says the title. I'm gonna name the very little favourite things i own just for fun. They're not in any sort of order, just whatever comes to my mind!
1. Diary planner
Yeah! Diary planner! Whenever i look at my diary planner, i feel a surge of affection towards it. I don't know why but maybe it's because looking at all those notes at my calendar makes me feel like i'm getting a hold on situations. Or maybe it's knowing that i'm not forgetting anything, any events, any appointments, any meetings, because they're all jotted down.
2. Amazon Kindle
My e-book reader has been one of my most treasured items since i purchased it. Despite of some people who says that i should get an iPad instead of an ebook reader, i still stick to my opinion that the reader suits me more than iPad! Well, first thing first, iPad does not have e-ink technology and thus after a long period of reading books through it, you'll get eye sore. Another thing, i like having an item which focused on some specific purpose. iPad has a lot of functions and if given to me, i'll have many distractions when i want to read. If its Kindle, i'll treat it as a real book. No whatsoever distractions. It even has paper-kind look on it!
3. Post-it Notes!
I simply love them! I love writing them and pasting them on my walls. Wait till i get to uni, i'll start filling the walls in my hostel with post-it notes! =P
4. My notebooks
The pretty ones. Cheap and expensive ones! Of course, i love the really cool-looking expensive notebooks. I only own one for now. But, i still love the other cheaper notebooks. I just don't know why but i love notebooks.
5. Testpad papers!
Ok..i know this is weird. But! One of my quirks? lol! I like those papers. I just like to write on them and then file them together. Feels nice.
6. Netbook
Who doesn't like their very own laptop or netbook? Hehe.
7. Cute plushies, little soft toys!
Ahh..no explanations needed. They just melt my heart!
8. Guitar
I'm not that good with it, but at least i can strum away songs and sing along. Just love it especially for time of personal worship at home. :D
9. My red palm-sized Bible! and the new one!
I've been using my old Bible for 3 years. I thought i've been using it for more than that! It just feels like home. Even the new one, i love the unhighlighted words and the smell of brand-new papers! And of course, the living Word in them!
After writing all of these, i realised that, indeed i love many many things i own at home! Even the little insignificant ones, like pens, pencil box, erasers (im serious!), pillow, candles, that black jacket etc. Ahh.. what a discovery i never realise and appreciate ~ :)
1. Diary planner
Yeah! Diary planner! Whenever i look at my diary planner, i feel a surge of affection towards it. I don't know why but maybe it's because looking at all those notes at my calendar makes me feel like i'm getting a hold on situations. Or maybe it's knowing that i'm not forgetting anything, any events, any appointments, any meetings, because they're all jotted down.
2. Amazon Kindle
My e-book reader has been one of my most treasured items since i purchased it. Despite of some people who says that i should get an iPad instead of an ebook reader, i still stick to my opinion that the reader suits me more than iPad! Well, first thing first, iPad does not have e-ink technology and thus after a long period of reading books through it, you'll get eye sore. Another thing, i like having an item which focused on some specific purpose. iPad has a lot of functions and if given to me, i'll have many distractions when i want to read. If its Kindle, i'll treat it as a real book. No whatsoever distractions. It even has paper-kind look on it!
3. Post-it Notes!
I simply love them! I love writing them and pasting them on my walls. Wait till i get to uni, i'll start filling the walls in my hostel with post-it notes! =P
4. My notebooks
The pretty ones. Cheap and expensive ones! Of course, i love the really cool-looking expensive notebooks. I only own one for now. But, i still love the other cheaper notebooks. I just don't know why but i love notebooks.
5. Testpad papers!
Ok..i know this is weird. But! One of my quirks? lol! I like those papers. I just like to write on them and then file them together. Feels nice.
6. Netbook
Who doesn't like their very own laptop or netbook? Hehe.
7. Cute plushies, little soft toys!
Ahh..no explanations needed. They just melt my heart!
8. Guitar
I'm not that good with it, but at least i can strum away songs and sing along. Just love it especially for time of personal worship at home. :D
9. My red palm-sized Bible! and the new one!
I've been using my old Bible for 3 years. I thought i've been using it for more than that! It just feels like home. Even the new one, i love the unhighlighted words and the smell of brand-new papers! And of course, the living Word in them!
After writing all of these, i realised that, indeed i love many many things i own at home! Even the little insignificant ones, like pens, pencil box, erasers (im serious!), pillow, candles, that black jacket etc. Ahh.. what a discovery i never realise and appreciate ~ :)
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Child Abuse
I read a book called “The Lost Boy” yesterday night. It was a real testimony of a boy who had been abused and escaped from it. It shows how the boy struggled through it until his adulthood. A really touching story. I never knew how an abused child goes through life before this until i read this book written by the child himself who has grown up. His name is David Pelzer. I realised the work of a child abuse social worker is really worth honoring. You need love and lots of wisdom to gain the trust of an abused child and also to help him or her go through it. Not many children are brave enough to voice out the trouble they are facing at home. Its more towards the work of teachers at school. Teachers at school must be alert on what’s going on their students. In this story, this boy was first rescued by the teachers who realised those marks on his hands and his constant scraping for food in the school’s garbage bin due to lack of food.
I felt sort of more pulled towards the job of a teacher and in the same time, and the first time, a child abuse social worker. I feel that everyone is given a chance to help out, in this case, children. It’s whether we are willing to make the first brave step and and have compassion on them.
When i was contemplating about this, i suddenly remembered the short “message” im assigned to deliver this Friday in the opening of my church Mission Weekend. It’s about child abuse! It says: “A report of child abuse is made every ten seconds. Almost five children die every day as a result of child abuse. What can I do about it?”
Is that a coincidence? I don’t think so. I would like to think that it's an "eye opener" to me.
Now, I guess when i deliver the message this Friday, i'll speak with conviction rather than merely stating my well-rehearsed message.
I felt sort of more pulled towards the job of a teacher and in the same time, and the first time, a child abuse social worker. I feel that everyone is given a chance to help out, in this case, children. It’s whether we are willing to make the first brave step and and have compassion on them.
When i was contemplating about this, i suddenly remembered the short “message” im assigned to deliver this Friday in the opening of my church Mission Weekend. It’s about child abuse! It says: “A report of child abuse is made every ten seconds. Almost five children die every day as a result of child abuse. What can I do about it?”
Is that a coincidence? I don’t think so. I would like to think that it's an "eye opener" to me.
Now, I guess when i deliver the message this Friday, i'll speak with conviction rather than merely stating my well-rehearsed message.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Sweet & Precious
They are more precious than gold,
than much pure gold;
they are sweeter than honey,
than honey from the comb.
By them is your servant warned;
in keeping them there is great reward.
(:
Friday, July 15, 2011
In God alone
I'm feeling all butterflies now. Roaring butterflies in my tummy, if butterflies can roar. Result is coming out in a while. I don't know what the outcome will be, but...
Whatever it is, i give my plans to God.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
White as Snow
Sang this song, Nothing but the blood of Jesus in church today
and am reminded of God's grace and mercy.
I'm simply not worthy of Him but He made me worthy of Him.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Be a watchtower
When i first stepped into my bedroom this morning, i almost burst out in tears. Seeing my jacket, my bed, my books, my windows, etc...ahh..bliss! They simply moved and warmed my heart to see something familiar after a long time, like meeting back my long lost best friend! I know i sounded very emotional, and its not thaaaat long i was away to justify such expressions, but i don't know why i really almost lost my mind right there at that time. Lol.
Anyways, back track now. I was away for almost 3 weeks...again. This time, i was back to my mum's hometown, Perlis. Mainly i wanted to spend time with my grandma. I'd always wanted to stay there for a longer period since a few years back but couldn't due to school and etc. I guess it's not too late. I don't know when i'll have this opportunity anymore....
Being back this time, i realised there were many changes happening again and going to happen. I'm really scared of what is to come next. Everyone is getting old..... At times, i feel like i have to be a strong spiritual anchor...to really pray...to really fast for a good end to those changes. I know i can't prevent things from happening, i can't make the time to stop for me..but i know God is in every bit there on Heaven as it is here. He holds everything. I'm just scared that i'll be a seasoned watchtower. Anyway, i'll not lose hope. As Paul said here..
"Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses.....; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God....." [2 Corinthians 6:4-7a]
I will take Paul's example.
Just keep me moving.
Anyways, back track now. I was away for almost 3 weeks...again. This time, i was back to my mum's hometown, Perlis. Mainly i wanted to spend time with my grandma. I'd always wanted to stay there for a longer period since a few years back but couldn't due to school and etc. I guess it's not too late. I don't know when i'll have this opportunity anymore....
Being back this time, i realised there were many changes happening again and going to happen. I'm really scared of what is to come next. Everyone is getting old..... At times, i feel like i have to be a strong spiritual anchor...to really pray...to really fast for a good end to those changes. I know i can't prevent things from happening, i can't make the time to stop for me..but i know God is in every bit there on Heaven as it is here. He holds everything. I'm just scared that i'll be a seasoned watchtower. Anyway, i'll not lose hope. As Paul said here..
"Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses.....; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God....." [2 Corinthians 6:4-7a]
I will take Paul's example.
Just keep me moving.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
the imperfect disappears
Hope fastens on future happiness, and waits for that; but in heaven, faith will be swallowed up in actual sight, and hope in enjoyment.
There is no room to believe and hope, when we see and enjoy. But there, love will be made perfect. There we shall perfectly love God. And there we shall perfectly love one another.
[Commentary from Matthew Henry]
Friday, June 3, 2011
It's funny..
It's funny how sometimes some things that meant a lot to us mean nothing now. A growing up teenager may not find the toys they used to cry over for when they were young interesting anymore. An avid fan of some Korean or Chinese bands may forget that frenzy and go for another one. A girl who used to cry over a crush may see that same person after a few years with feelings of nothing more than friends. Sometimes i find it scary. Scary because things change, and many times its kind of fast. Scary when you found the things you believed in to be wrong in the end. Scary when you have to move on because everyone is. But sometimes, it gives me a soothing feeling. Soothing because if so, even the bad times have their own end. Soothing because you know you've grown in the process and learned.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Captivate - Starfield
You say, strength is found in weakness
Peace in incompleteness
So why do I hold on?
You look, For a heart that's open
For beauty in the broken
So why am I withdrawn?
My soul's screaming out
To be found in You
Spirit draw me to my knees
Captivate all of me, all of me
Here before You honestly
Captivate all of me, all of me
I'm so messy and distracted
Undisciplined and tactless
Here on the inside
I thought age would tell the secrets
But the secrets are still secret
And the years are passing by
Peace in incompleteness
So why do I hold on?
You look, For a heart that's open
For beauty in the broken
So why am I withdrawn?
My soul's screaming out
To be found in You
Spirit draw me to my knees
Captivate all of me, all of me
Here before You honestly
Captivate all of me, all of me
I'm so messy and distracted
Undisciplined and tactless
Here on the inside
I thought age would tell the secrets
But the secrets are still secret
And the years are passing by
Teach me to wait in the moments of my need
Teach me to hear the melodies of peace
Teach me to hear the melodies of peace
Friday, April 15, 2011
Europe trip (Florence, Italy) (10th day)
Because we spent two days in Austria, we could only spend one day in Florence, which was a waste! Florence is another BF city! Beautiful and Fascinating! :D
Well, we had some difficulty in finding our hotel and ended up wasted quite some time. My bad. I didn't really figure the direction to it. xD
Anyway, we took another train at around 3.30pm from Florence to City of Pisa which is about 1 hour ride. Quite tiring as we had wasted energy in finding hotel with our luggages. But that city is another must-visit place!
I went to Pisa Tower. The sight of that slanted tower is incredible! I guess the slant kind of make the whole tower even more special.
They also sell really old newpapers, posters and all of them are really intriguing. When i saw all of these, my mind right away thought about all those detective works i could do if i ever want to investigate about something. I know i watched too much detective movies. =P
One thing about European countries, there are a lot of people who bring their dogs around for city walks, to train stations, parks, restaurants everywhere! So, where there are dogs, there are urines and shits too. So sometimes when you pass an area, you'll catch a whiff of those smells. And mind where you place your feet. Everywhere is danger zone, seriously.
But anyway, i still wish dogs are allowed everywhere in Malaysia. x)
Well, we had some difficulty in finding our hotel and ended up wasted quite some time. My bad. I didn't really figure the direction to it. xD
Anyway, we took another train at around 3.30pm from Florence to City of Pisa which is about 1 hour ride. Quite tiring as we had wasted energy in finding hotel with our luggages. But that city is another must-visit place!
I went to Pisa Tower. The sight of that slanted tower is incredible! I guess the slant kind of make the whole tower even more special.
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| the road towards Pisa tower. real good planning in placing their train station at opposite end of the tower so people must walk through this area! |
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| the overused pose in Pisa, but oh well, i still wanted to do it~ =P |
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| they sold a lot of antiques. mum was like "I want to buy ALL!" but after that, remembered that we only have 8 hands. |
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| ooold newspapers! see the number there? 1955!! COOL! |
One thing about European countries, there are a lot of people who bring their dogs around for city walks, to train stations, parks, restaurants everywhere! So, where there are dogs, there are urines and shits too. So sometimes when you pass an area, you'll catch a whiff of those smells. And mind where you place your feet. Everywhere is danger zone, seriously.
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| cute dogs! |
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| ..but sinful act done right in front of me. |
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Europe trip (Venice, Italy) (9th day)
Still in Venice for the next day, my mum got semangat-ed to cook in our hotel since we'd a kitchen there! So, we bought ingredients to cook spaghettis!
After that, we headed to a few tourist sites. I'll just show the pictures here.
Went to Lido too, which is a small island right below of the main area of Venice. There they have buses and cars and motorbikes. :) And i was so excited to find out that there is a beach!
So thats about it la in Venice! :)
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| This was our first round of cooking~ |
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| Real yummy! Tried 3 types of spaghettis! |
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| the street in San Marco. |
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| Basilica San Marco |
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| St. Mark's Campanile. Huge..can hear the sound of the bell from far away.. |
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| in St. Mark's Square. There were lots of pigeons and this kid in red and white kept chasing them around and around..lol. |
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| on the Rialto bridge. |
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| Adriatic Sea beyond. Finally seeing other sea other than South China Sea and Selat Melaka! |
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| you can see this type of boats almost everywhere in venice. |
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| a boy mesmerized by the water |
So thats about it la in Venice! :)
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