Kids and Life

I'm typing this blog post in my office. Thought of reviving this blog a few days back so here I am. The reason to such decision is due to my deteriorating writing skill. It has been some time since I last wrote. I realised this worsening when I was writing my testimonial on Optimax service. The words just could not come out properly. So I panicked. Haha. Anyways, I can already foresee this determination won't last that long based on my past history.

Life has been monotonous these few weeks. I have graduated from my university in the end of June. I started a part time job in a brain training centre for kids and teens. It only takes up half of my Friday and Saturday. So, that leaves the rest of the week free for me. I actually enjoy staying at home. Occasionally going out with friends and then returning to the comfort of my home, reading a book or watching movies and dramas, cooking, playing with my dog. Kind of relaxing. Well, this life is gonna be on halt for a while starting from next week though. I applied for a tutoring job in my uni, so will be busier than before as I would have two jobs at the same time.

The kids here in this centre. They are of different personality, of course. I am still learning on how to deal with different kids at the same time. To max out their learning and performance. I still feel so inadequate in handling them, in using the best approaches for their learning. It is impossible to use one method and expect all of them to get it. I need to be more creative. Still learning. Anyways, I would say teaching here is more stress free than teaching in a government secondary school. I remember being angry almost everyday at school, my blood pressure rising constantly. It was suffering. However, here, I don't feel that way. Probably because when the children misbehave, I just have to raise my voice a little, and then they will quiet down. Anyways, I hope and vow not to let anger to govern me if I'm sent to a gov school next year. I don't wanna live that kind of torturous life.

Okay, I think I got to get back to my work. Sorry for the empty-in-juicy-news-and-details post. If there's anyone still reading this.

The speed of a car

A car is a type of machine that carries passengers from one place to another place. A little brief explanation on what is a car. A car is made up of an outer steel casing with four wheels. Inside, there are cushions for passengers to sit in and a steering wheel for the driver to steer the direction of the moving car. To control the speed of the car, there are two pedals that serve for that purpose. One is the gas pedal, another is the brake pedal. These two pedals are one of the most important things in a car. Without one of those, a car would either not move or not stop. The average ideal speed of a car is 80 km/h though it can range from 0 km/h to 180 km/h for a normal car.

So, here comes my point. Since the ideal speed of a car is 80 km/h on a normal straight road, driving too slow, say 30 km/h, won't do the passengers any good. People would start honking at the back and you would have to speed it up. Besides, you'll never get to your destination. It won't save up your petrol too due to some reasons. So, one shouldn't be fearful but to speed up to the ideal speed.

If you are to speed over 80km/h, for example 130km/h, you will be putting yourself in a seriously dangerous situation. Though it may be fun at first, all of the adrenaline rush, I don't have to explain what would happen out of it when a slight mistake is to happen, which is very very likely.

The speed of 80 km/h is the best speed and should be followed by everyone. If not, most. Its not too fast, and its not too slow. You can enjoy the views while driving besides getting to your destination in time. See, how good that is?

Just saying. :)

..if only.

It's already the middle of my mid sem break. I haven't had much progress with my assignments yet. Well, the very reason i made the photo up there. To temporary run away from assignments, get my head away from it. :)

The words, '..if only.', speaks of regrets. Actually i didn't know what to write on top of those leaves and branches. I wanted it to be something short, yet meaningful. My initial plan was to write something sweet, but then these leaves and branches give me the feeling of...yearning...or is it regret? It's for you, viewer to decide. :) p/s: Oh! I've applied a different brushing method this time. Had never used that before. :)

Darn, now that its done, back to assignments. :(

Thoughtfulness

I'm still in almost the same condition as yesterday. Its actually pretty dynamic. At times, i don't feel that bad, then it takes a downward turn towards the worse. When will this end? Bleeeaaarrrggh.

Well, even though this has detered me from some plans, i'm not going to let it deters ALL of my plans. Those that require lesser energy especially. Not assignments! They're gruelling! Lol.

Just now i read a blog post somewhere where the blogger complained about certain things regarding his certain friends. The blog was in public, as in anyone can view it even the ones he was complaining about. It was pretty obvious who he was referring to. So, the friend saw it and she commented. It was also obvious she was hurt by what he said through the comment she wrote.

This makes me think, is it worth it to say whatever you want in a public blog and hurt the ones reading it? Is it appropriate to say all of these? Maybe the blogger was feeling intense feelings about the whole thing, but i think, some things are meant to be kept quiet or tolerated and be left as it is. Or if you want to voice out your opinion, just talk to the person straight instead of telling the person indirectly through a public blog. If you don't want to do something, just say no and move on. You don't have to leave a trace of resentment on the way out. Lol. I'm not going to explain what was the story about. If you're confused, then ... be confused laah =P Well, with all that was said, i hope i didn't make the same mistake! In case you're wondering, the person doesn't read my blog. Hehe.

Anyway, coming back home with a sick body is in a way torturing! There are so many food i want to eat! Lol. 8 more days to recover!

God bless~ :)

Down..down..down..down..down..

Today i had my first group presentation that carries marks. We were the first group to present and we needed to teach the other students on Lompat Tinggi. What i can say about the presentation is that it totally went down hill. Well, we had tried our best but it seemed that it was not enough. Everything was pretty dull because the students were not giving much cooperation. On top of that, more than half of them came 30 mins late so our presentation had to be shorten 30 mins! Which means a 1 and a half hour teaching became 1 hour. D: At the end of the lesson, the instructor who was giving us the marks said some stuffs that confirmed that we weren't that good. Ugh, hopefully by being first to present, we got enough 'markah kasihan' to get us through! Oh wells~ one of the factors that makes my mood pretty bad. I guess i'm just having one of my moody days today. Went vegetarian for the night. A sign of mourning? lol. Anyway, shall rejoice because at least now 1 presentation down, 3 others to go for this and next week itself! :)

Dreams..

..aspirations..ambitions..desires..wishes..

Everyone has them. And i'm one of them. Recently, i made a list of things i want to do in my life in a website. Well, some are short term and some are long term. Some are of higher importance and the rest lesser. Altogether until now, i have about 50 things in the list. It's not that many compared to the others in the website who have at least 200 dreams (the most i saw is 3000!).

Seeing that it's the end of the year and also more importantly, closing to the end of my schooling life, i am quite anxious of what's next. What's next after this? Till now i have a vague idea of what i am to do. Still, on the other hand, i don't know whether it is what i really am meant to be doing. What i know is that in the future, i will be traveling around, by God's grace. But, what's in between? Now, my intention is to be a teacher, an English teacher to be precise. Frankly, i don't know whether i'm up to that as i've always wanted to teach Maths when i was young. Till last year, English caught my eye (its getting more interesting!) besides Maths being a disappointment. I was thinking if i am to study English, i can use that as a tool to travel around. But, still the same questions, am i good in teaching that subject? Is this really what God wants with me? Or am i the one assuming that i am to be that? I think that i've not done well in my exams this year. I am just hoping that i am above the required pointer to enter a uni. I'm not really having much hope that they'll offer me the course i want even if i get to enter, in that case, i'll choose to go to a private uni for TESL. Ah..a long crooked way and full of uncertainties!

I think i'm already in a holiday mood though i have one more week to go. 3 more papers - 2 Maths papers and Chemistry paper 1. So near yet so far! I hope next week will come very soon. I'm already thinking of how little days of next year i get to be at home relaxing if i am off to study in July. I need more!