Dreams..

..aspirations..ambitions..desires..wishes..

Everyone has them. And i'm one of them. Recently, i made a list of things i want to do in my life in a website. Well, some are short term and some are long term. Some are of higher importance and the rest lesser. Altogether until now, i have about 50 things in the list. It's not that many compared to the others in the website who have at least 200 dreams (the most i saw is 3000!).

Seeing that it's the end of the year and also more importantly, closing to the end of my schooling life, i am quite anxious of what's next. What's next after this? Till now i have a vague idea of what i am to do. Still, on the other hand, i don't know whether it is what i really am meant to be doing. What i know is that in the future, i will be traveling around, by God's grace. But, what's in between? Now, my intention is to be a teacher, an English teacher to be precise. Frankly, i don't know whether i'm up to that as i've always wanted to teach Maths when i was young. Till last year, English caught my eye (its getting more interesting!) besides Maths being a disappointment. I was thinking if i am to study English, i can use that as a tool to travel around. But, still the same questions, am i good in teaching that subject? Is this really what God wants with me? Or am i the one assuming that i am to be that? I think that i've not done well in my exams this year. I am just hoping that i am above the required pointer to enter a uni. I'm not really having much hope that they'll offer me the course i want even if i get to enter, in that case, i'll choose to go to a private uni for TESL. Ah..a long crooked way and full of uncertainties!

I think i'm already in a holiday mood though i have one more week to go. 3 more papers - 2 Maths papers and Chemistry paper 1. So near yet so far! I hope next week will come very soon. I'm already thinking of how little days of next year i get to be at home relaxing if i am off to study in July. I need more!