Kids and Life

I'm typing this blog post in my office. Thought of reviving this blog a few days back so here I am. The reason to such decision is due to my deteriorating writing skill. It has been some time since I last wrote. I realised this worsening when I was writing my testimonial on Optimax service. The words just could not come out properly. So I panicked. Haha. Anyways, I can already foresee this determination won't last that long based on my past history.

Life has been monotonous these few weeks. I have graduated from my university in the end of June. I started a part time job in a brain training centre for kids and teens. It only takes up half of my Friday and Saturday. So, that leaves the rest of the week free for me. I actually enjoy staying at home. Occasionally going out with friends and then returning to the comfort of my home, reading a book or watching movies and dramas, cooking, playing with my dog. Kind of relaxing. Well, this life is gonna be on halt for a while starting from next week though. I applied for a tutoring job in my uni, so will be busier than before as I would have two jobs at the same time.

The kids here in this centre. They are of different personality, of course. I am still learning on how to deal with different kids at the same time. To max out their learning and performance. I still feel so inadequate in handling them, in using the best approaches for their learning. It is impossible to use one method and expect all of them to get it. I need to be more creative. Still learning. Anyways, I would say teaching here is more stress free than teaching in a government secondary school. I remember being angry almost everyday at school, my blood pressure rising constantly. It was suffering. However, here, I don't feel that way. Probably because when the children misbehave, I just have to raise my voice a little, and then they will quiet down. Anyways, I hope and vow not to let anger to govern me if I'm sent to a gov school next year. I don't wanna live that kind of torturous life.

Okay, I think I got to get back to my work. Sorry for the empty-in-juicy-news-and-details post. If there's anyone still reading this.

D'Sync & Z.G.

These past few days had been..crazy yet again! Joined another singing competition, this time in 2 groups! First group is D'Sync. Second group is a new-found group, all consists of TESL-ians (Sharon, Yvonne, Jack, Vin, Jared, Ken and me). The name is Zero Gravity (almost named it Antiseptic..lol). We sang Jar Of Hearts, When You Say Nothing At All, and You're Beautiful. So yeah, it was actually just for fun. We were pretty lack of practice and worse, forgot to tune our guitars before we went up stage. So, imagine! haha! Oh wells, at least gained another experience and practising was fun! :DD

D'Syns's too not enough practice, lesser in fact. So we only sang one song, Just The Way You Are. Everything was pretty ok until the end when we sort of forgot how it goes! Syazza stopped singing and i was left singing the harmony. So it sounded pretty weird. Huhu. Brush that aside. So, expectedly, we didn't win anything. Hehe. There was this girl who sang Rolling in the Deep. She was so awesome you would have thought it was the real singer singing live. =P

So, after all of these running-arounds, noise, etc.. today and tomorrow would be a day of quietness. I would be sort of stuck at home here in uni today and tomorrow. Got to force myself to do report and hopefully, after that, to study a little bit on Grammar, which i doubt i can. =O Looking to spending some real quiet time with Jesus, not the fast stopping by. This quietness will be good for me. In fact, it was really hard to say no to going out on Monday to shop but i know i've been bombarded with so many things until i would feel uncomfortable if there's nothing going on at all, or when there's no noise but quietness. A day to slower down myself is what i need to balance everything. :)

Special

Seizing the chance to update now in the library while waiting for the others for the next forum meeting! The days this week had been hectic ones. As usual i guess. Have to get used to the full timetable and constant flow of exams, presentations and assignmnents. This time with music practices. Hopefully my consistency level will be increased! Despite of such busyness, i'm lovin' it! Though of course, at times, i felt pretty lazy and wanted to just sleep it off, i feel productive and satisfied. But ahh, how i wish i have more time for all things! Better time management? Hmm..one thing i realise, my rate of doing things are deteriorating. I need more time to do the same amount of work than last time! Gotta improve on that. Oh well, enough of self-reminding post.=P

Anyway, this week is quite a ..... Weird? Special? Faith-and-love challenging week? There is indeed some changes around. In terms of friendship, vision, faith i believe. Earlier in this week, God has reminded me to look to Him in all that i do and He shall being prosper to whatever i am to do. He gave it in a vision to my pastor during worship where i was seen standing alone in a very BIG garden. Everything around me was pretty dull. But when i look up to God and stretch my hands to Him, everything around me, the flowers in the garden etc came to life and became a very beautiful garden. Then he said, God is with me. I was really touched by such honor that God give him this vision of me. It is very assuring. Yet again, at that time, i was like laughing at myself because how could i have forgotten that He is every bit interested in my life, again? Thank You Jesus!

Not going back hometown this weekend. Tomorrow will be having singing competition! Wish me the best! :DD

The 'straight' day

11.11.11

What a unique day. I'm actually kind of sleepy right now but wouldnt't want to miss posting something since i missed the previous one. First, it's all 11! Second, it gives me an honest feeling, cuz it's all straight? Third, it's Single's Day! Fourth, i just like it la. Fifth, no fifth. Well, bro texted me to wait for 11.11am. But i kind of missed the sms while missing the train. So, what i did at 11.11am on 11.11.11? Missed the train. And the next one which is 11.11pm on 11.11.11? Sleeping. Yeah, i just predicted that.

So anyway, Jack came down to KL. We had Jogoya and he treated me (thanks again!). It's been like years since i stepped into that place! The food was good. Service too. Environment too. But i think last time i was able to eat more than today! No more growing. Lol. All in all, was a great lunch. Had a short walk around Pavillion and then watched 'The Adventure of Tin Tin'. Its quite a nice movie. Somehow, it reminded me of Cassie! Perhaps, both are cute? :D Initially, i thought it would just be another typical cartoon story, but in the end, the storyline was pretty unpredictable for me, which is good. Steven Spielberg ma..lol.

So, 2 more days to uni! Time flies again! But this week was pretty productive, not in terms of assignments though. Productive in fulfilling promises, helping out, rejuvenating, catching ups. So, no regrets. :) Oh, yesterday night had a yumcha session with KHS buddies. All of them are pretty much the same. It was cool to listen to their stories from uni. Hehe.

K then, no more crapping and reporting events that are boring you right now (its ok, i know). *yawn* ta'z people! Calling it a day! Hoping to wake up at dawn tomorrow! *whispers*but actually she'll just snooze the alarm clock for another 2 hours.

Scouting~

I was out to Port Dickson early this morning with Pastor Peter and Simon. It has been like..5 years i didn't go there since the last youth camp we had! I miss the beach and the sea so much!!! But somehow my impression of the beach was pretty bad. I thought it would be really dirty and that the sea water will be murky. However, today, the beach is clean! And the sea water near the beach is blueeee! Well, pastor said there are two sides of PD and Tanjung Tuan (if im not mistaken) is cleaner than the other side. So, i sort of learnt the road to PD for future sake!

Anyway, we went to three campsites along the beach. The first one was the campsite where i first went to PH youth camp! Old memories! I was in form 1 then. Never would have thought then that i would return to scout for campsite places instead!! Nice place indeed. I still remember the place near the water dispenser where they hid one of the clues for treasure hunt. =P So, the second campsite was a Hawaiian-like place. Swimming pool, swimming pool with waves!, fake parrot, atap huts.. Nice! It is beside the beach too so the view is pretty awesome! Third was Methodist Hall. My third youth camp place. Memories! But too bad it is closed down and owned by Sime Darby :( a very nice place. Still remember the campfire we made! It was also where God brought me back to Him!

After that, pastor decided to take us to see the lighthouse. I think he was missing the place a lot because he was recounting all the memories at such and such resorts, hotels. Hehe. So, reached that place and found out no car is allowed this time. Well, since we reached already, pastor decided to walk up. Paid entrance fee for us, and up we went! Found out the journey up the hill was 600m! Glad i walked a lot in uni so was able to reeach the top. Haha. It was pretty hot too! The scenery above was amazing. But too bad the lighthouse was restricted. So, just went around it. Rest for a while on top, and then went down again. Was so hungry by then. Went to makan in one of the restaurants and pastor treated us. Had sate too! Fulfilled la!

So back to Kajang at about 3pm and went to cut my hair!! Couldnt't stand the messiness dy so decided to cut a little short. And outcome is kinda very short! Lol! Not that nice though. I feel my face too squarish already now. Oh wells, i dont't mind as long as im freed from all of those messiness! Im frrreeeed! :D

All in all, owned the day x)

Geeky session

I realised i've been updating blog quite frequently since i started uni! Compared to the previous months. So good right?

Well, had a relaxing day today. Sort of. Brought the 'kukurus' out from their 'cage'. Hehe. Cute bunch of people, my cell members. We watched Real Steel, for me, again! So, couldn't help sleeping in the middle of it but enjoyed the last few scenes. After that, Daphne and Erin got hyped up on those nerdy-geeky-lensless specs! In the end, all of us bought the specs for fun! Lol~ i bought two. Had always wanted one of those anyway. So now, we're going to wear them during some of cell meetings. B)

Oh wells, after being out for 4 consecutive days, i'm going to stay home all day for good tomorrow! :D... And force myself to do assignments tomorrow! D: ...life? :P

Sweet sadness

Is there such a thing called sweet sadness? I think there might be! :) a sadness yet enveloped with hope! That's what im feeling right now. Just had a meet up with Jo-lyn, Vincent, Kah Hong and Ben in MV. After one and a half year? Its really time for that! Missed them so much and all their jokes and company! Only managed to contact through FB chats. Well, they didn't really change much except a little mature in the inside? Lol. I don't know when i'll get to meet with them again. My timetable clashed with theirs. But, i know we'll meet again.

This week, one of the things i learnt is to make the most out of every situation. Though the thing or situation may be rather crappy, i find that there will always be a life lesson out of it. Whatever that is given, make the best out of it and appreciate every moment in the process. Easier said huh? Well,i know it is very easy to say, but with a heart full of thanksgiving to God, it is practically impossible to feel that.

Alright, looks like another 6 days before uni! Should i follow Arnan's footsteps in those very very weird sleeping pattern? Like taking naps instead of sleep, shorten sleeping time, in order to do assignments and study? Lol. Well, I think...uhh....the longest i may be able to commit to such plan is one day! I'll definitely drop dead the next day. Glad im not an NUS student huh? :P bless that guy~

Oh, had captain ball last Saturday. It was fun! But too bad i couldnt join.D: Muscles were aching due to the dance practice and then carrying of bags. I could only watch and be the time and score keeper! Hope we'll organize this again in the near future!

"You just got to swim like a man"

Supposed to be sleeping now, but thought of blogging for a while. Had a gruelling day in the train today. Everyone rushed back home and so, it was so packed! I guess, this comic strip below truly describes how it was today.

SPARTAAANSSS!!

Like seriously.

When i reached Mid Valley station, i couldn't get out of the train initially. I had to really SWIM through the crowd, the opposing crowd through the door. I tried soooo hard until my bag ripped open without me realising. And it was still opened wide after i stepped like a hundred steps until i felt something was not right due to the pressure the bag gave. I turned around and i was like, oh my gosh! And all the while, no one even tried to tell me. I think they just stared. Tsk tsk. I don't know whether anything had dropped, but i think no. Thank God i decided to put all the stuffs in my other bag except my clothes.

Really don't understand why they just can't let the people inside go out first before entering. Ain't that easy?

THE significant one

Ahh..i wanted to post something - anything- on these two significant dates which are 31st October and 1st November, but i didn't get to! D: Wasted! Why is 31st October significant? Well, i've always loved the month of October..somehow. 1st November because it was 1.11.11! How cool is that? Anyways, though i didn't get to post anything on both days, i managed to printscreen this!

Its 1.11.11 at 11.11PM! :D vain huh? boo yeah~

So, yesteday i just had my Sahsiah test in an auditorium. Somehow it felt so weird to sit there and take a test. But i liked it. :P
Nothing much till now. Good daaaayy! :D

ahhh

I find myself smiling today while listening to songs by Frank Sinatra. Ahh, love his songs. <3 I was simply imagining that i'm at the streets in Paris, or Florence or London or Salzburg, enjoying the view. Like i'm really staying there, that the cafe behind of me is mine, that i'm not just a mere tourist but permanent resident. Bliss :D Day dreaming in the middle of the day huh? i like..

Ah, back to earth. I have not progressed on my assignments yet. *puts dramatic sound effect* I've been hunting lots of songs in the past two days and watching movies and lazing around. With my past experience of not feeling the emergency state eventhough the red light is blinking right in front of my eyes and the alarm sounding noisily in the background, i've got to shake myself into being panic. P.A.N.I.C. Panic enough to get me moving. But hmm, as im typing this, i'm still not feeling it yet. Lol.

I'm feeling better the last two days. But i don't know why i'm still running a fever between 37-38 degree. Still a little headache and dizzy. These few days, people have been asking me how am i and i think i'm boring them by giving the same kind of answer. Kinda pity them to have to hear all of that. Hehe. I think i even bored myself!

Just some updates.

Yesterday i went to CF, as i said in my earlier post. We had prayer walk around the campus. It only went on for 45 mins and i was paired with a Sabahan girl called Pelucan (something like this). Mostly the CF consists of Sabahans and Sarawakians. Well, at least those who came. Only me, Alice and Jared were Chinese there. I guess there're a few more but they weren't there yesterday. Anyway, though the meeting was pretty simple and short, i felt pretty "alive" again in uni. Don't really know how to explain so i won't confuse you guys with words. In conclusion, it was good! :) I think i'll be able to pick up some Bahasa because they speak in BM. Hehe.

I was back yesterday also. The journey was tiring. I'd got to wait 1 full hour for the next Rawang train. Didn't know it was that long! Perhaps i'd been blessed all these while, to arrive at the train station right on the time the train arrived! It was already 4pm by the time the train reached. Glad that i was able to sit throughout the whole journey. Sat beside a mother and her baby in the Rawang-Seremban train and the baby was so active! He just couldn't stay focus on one thing, or stay quiet for a moment at all. He kept climbing all over, pulling things out, grabbing stuffs and then throwing them away, touching bags, clothes, tudungs, and in the end, even suddenly kissed my phone after marvelling at it. Pity the mom. She had to apologize to everyone around her everytime her baby did that. Lol.

Today, we met our new youth pastor called Pastor Peter Wong. He is from Klang and is still staying there! Touched by his effort of coming here from far. Well, hope that we'll work together as a team for the better! :)

10 random things i feel like doing now

Because i've nothing to do and i don't feel like starting my assignments now since i'm having something later.


1. Climb one of the mountains here in Tg Malim. (because i've been seeing it everyday and am seeing it right now through the window of the library.)

2. Buying lots of waffles and have a waffle party here in library.

3. Jam around with friends - singing, guitar, piano, SINGING WITH ALL MY HEART!!

4. Teleport to a beautiful beach and enjoy the sound of the waves while lying down on the sand with a glass of lemonade.

5. Watch a good comedy with friends who are not shy to laugh out loud.

6. Fly to different parts of Malaysia and to Perth to give surprise visits to friends.

7. Write a song with stupid lyrics with friends.

8. Eat Baskin Robbin's icecream!

9. Visit High School CF!! and TARC CF! Miss them so much and miss those times!

10. Gather those kakis and play all those games i used to play in childhood like batu seremban and getah!


Looks like there're lots of things to do with friends! Ugh! I guess i'm missing everyone right now or i need to socialize more and do something fun!
Anyways, have been feeling sleepy for the past few days. I think i've to change my sleeping pattern soon! Can't be going to lectures with a mind half shut down. Alright! CF is in 30 mins time. First time going. Wonder how will it be like. Will update when i go back Kajang today. :)

Nonsensical

Yeah, a new rare post. I don't know what to do now as i simply have no mood for everything for the moment. I'm pretty tired, yet i don't feel like sleeping. Perhaps i feel that another day will be gone if i allow sleep to steal away my one night. I know, pretty nonsense. But i just can't help it.

Well, today is not exactly a non-productive day compared to the other weekdays in this week. In day time, i used most of the time to draft out and write a letter to my adopted child. I should've sent a long time ago but only today i forced myself to because i know its now or never. I guess i just didn't know what to say to her or more to don't know how to exactly communicate with a 4 year old child! Anyways, the letter turned out not that bad. I hope she'll like it. Hopefully she'll keep the letter and then reread again without any help of translation.

After the letter, i drove to Ferlynne's house and waited out the rain before sitting a taxi to town. Practically sifted through all the great movies and commented on them. Hope to have a movie marathon soon. In town, Cornie picked us up together with Lil and Ling to Ampang for Korean food. Quite an enjoyable day. It's been some time. :)

Anyway, tomorrow will be the start of another weekend. Don't know why, weekends always give me the feeling of "there's something i need to do these two days but i just can't remember!". So now, i'm feeling that yet i know im just being paranoid. Still, convincing myself that i've nothing much in this weekend doesn't really help. Paranoid xD

Ugh, i can't wait for uni to start. Yet, in the same time, a little part of me wish that August wouldn't end so i don't have to go yet. A tug of war? :) Anyhow, i somehow miss assignments and the rush/busyness of all of it. Sort of exciting, like some mission. I hope i'll still feel this way when that time comes! 

I know i'm totally ranting right now. Oh well, who cares. I just need to write. :) 

Well, that's all for now.

It's funny..

It's funny how sometimes some things that meant a lot to us mean nothing now. A growing up teenager may not find the toys they used to cry over for when they were young interesting anymore. An avid fan of some Korean or Chinese bands may forget that frenzy and go for another one. A girl who used to cry over a crush may see that same person after a few years with feelings of nothing more than friends. Sometimes i find it scary. Scary because things change, and many times its kind of fast. Scary when you found the things you believed in to be wrong in the end. Scary when you have to move on because everyone is. But sometimes, it gives me a soothing feeling. Soothing because if so, even the bad times have their own end. Soothing because you know you've grown in the process and learned.

Combo

I had my Double Freedom in two days!

First is the liberation from exams.

Second is freedom from METALS!

Yes metals aka braces! I just took off my braces yesterday after 2 years of wearing it! :D Feeling so good right now. It is like acquiring a new set of teeth. Hehe.

So now, i guess it's time for more smiling!!

Okay...maybe not. 

An imprint..

I really felt like a birthday girl yesterday! Because STPM is finally over! :D

Now, i have a stretch of free time to tread. Suddenly feel pretty weird to be so free from any school-related thing. I feel like a nomad now. I guess this is the season for discipline? I mean with all of those free time, i can simply fall into a state of extreme laziness and grow stupid, slower and fat. And yeah, i'm greatly vulnerable to those. So, i'm here reminding myself to discipline and execute all those plans in this almost one year holiday! Ahh..one year holiday..sounds nice! :D

When i came back yesterday, grinning from ear to ear, i was greeted by another thing that made me grin more than ever. The arrival of a sweet card from my little sister in India!

 

She planted a tree a few weeks back and named it my name! Though it was a green project organized by the helpers in World Vision but still it's so sweet! Here is an imprint of a leaf of my tree in India.

:D

So, wanna be a joy to somebody else and receive much greater joy in return? Adopt a child! :D

Justin prays

I am not a Justin Bieber's fan but this song caught my attention when one of my friends posted this in Facebook. I thought it is a meaningful song and i didn't once think that he would sing this type of song. I'd always thought that he will be those kind of young teenager, who only care about money, fame and himself because he became so popular in such a young age. So, there is pretty a high chance that all these might get into his head and make him an arrogant person. But, i guess i am wrong here. 

Well, i quote my friend's words, "If this is where he's headed, I could really respect this guy." Couldn't agree more. :)

Hope that he will continue to head to the right direction.

p/s: I'm done halfway with STPM. Four more papers to go!

Sing, sing, sing!

I was studying halfway and suddenly i just wanted to sing and watch movie and play piano and sing and read storybook and sing and sing, mostly i felt like singing so much. I don't know, its just an outburst of emotion in my heart, yearning to express. At last, i'm here, blogging because i don't know when i'll stop if i start anything related to singing and loose my mood to study all the way.

It's been some time since i'm being productive. I'm glad i am today. At last! I hope it'll last. After planning my studying timetable again, i thought, i'm not too late after all. *maybe my optimism 'mechanism' strikes again, for good this time* I've been listening to this song in my blog over and over again for the whole two days. It helps me to study. In a weird way, actually. Through that song, I've been thinking of how brilliant Michael Scofield (that guy in Prison Break) is and it kinda motivates me to study. Haha. Well, this song is kind of a laid-back song too and so it does create that mood to study. Yeah, i guess i need the feel to study. Need to learn not to rely on it so much because it's pretty unstable. Oh well, i guess it will do for now.

Browsed the internet for pictures of worms and sea creatures to help me remember. There was one that caught my attention. Phylum Nematoda. Class Ascaris. Its a roundworm and man, it is so disgusting! Probably the most huge endoparasitic worm there is. I think many of us had been infected by it before. But those who are affected more seriously especially those in poor sanitation areas actually vomit worms and pass out worms in stool! I got all chill when i saw the picture of it. Imagine it being in our stomach. *shivers down the spine*

Inhuman Act!

I just saw a very horrible video today.

Mum heard about the news and told me in the car. I was shocked. It was a video where a young lady about the age of 21 tortured a rabbit until it died. She used a very cruel way to kill it. First, she posed with that little white rabbit with black spots in front of the camera. Very normal indeed. Then, she put it in the bag and paraded around the room with it, acting cute, in front of her friends. After that, came the horrible parts.

She placed the rabbit on a table, and, sat on it. Just like that. She actually bounced around with her butt when she sat on it so that more pressure could be placed on the rabbit. She did that for about 10 seconds? Then, she stood up, and viewed the rabbit, while singing with her high pitch voice. That rabbit wasn't able to move much even though i saw it was trying to escape. I suspect that it's bones were fractured a little due to that evil "stunt". Well, the girl did not take pity on the rabbit. She just smiled and giggled with her friends, about 3 girl friends around her age too (2 sitting down watching the act and one holding the camera!). They looked like they were enjoying it. Smiling all the way while watching the rabbit suffer. After that, came an even horrible act. I couldn't bear to watch the whole thing. I just took some sneak peaks. She took a flat surface of a glass about 40x40 cm and placed it on top of that rabbit. And then, she sat on the glass with that rabbit below and bounced on it to squash it more.

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By that time, i was positively screaming and shouting and screaming! How can a person do that!? Such an inhuman act! All of the people in the video looked pretty decent. Long hairs, wearing knee length skirt, and a white collar shirt. And they didn't even show any remorse or anything else other than giggling all the way! I suspect they did this a lot of times as the girl knew what to do in order to kill the rabbit in less than 4 minutes without any hitch! I saw when she removed that rabbit after the glass act, it was totally flat and blood came out of its mouth. Well, i haven't finished yet, she then turned the rabbit so that it laid on another side and sat on it with the glass AGAIN! Like, what the heck!

I've nothing more to say.

I think i'm right in the center.