Kids and Life

I'm typing this blog post in my office. Thought of reviving this blog a few days back so here I am. The reason to such decision is due to my deteriorating writing skill. It has been some time since I last wrote. I realised this worsening when I was writing my testimonial on Optimax service. The words just could not come out properly. So I panicked. Haha. Anyways, I can already foresee this determination won't last that long based on my past history.

Life has been monotonous these few weeks. I have graduated from my university in the end of June. I started a part time job in a brain training centre for kids and teens. It only takes up half of my Friday and Saturday. So, that leaves the rest of the week free for me. I actually enjoy staying at home. Occasionally going out with friends and then returning to the comfort of my home, reading a book or watching movies and dramas, cooking, playing with my dog. Kind of relaxing. Well, this life is gonna be on halt for a while starting from next week though. I applied for a tutoring job in my uni, so will be busier than before as I would have two jobs at the same time.

The kids here in this centre. They are of different personality, of course. I am still learning on how to deal with different kids at the same time. To max out their learning and performance. I still feel so inadequate in handling them, in using the best approaches for their learning. It is impossible to use one method and expect all of them to get it. I need to be more creative. Still learning. Anyways, I would say teaching here is more stress free than teaching in a government secondary school. I remember being angry almost everyday at school, my blood pressure rising constantly. It was suffering. However, here, I don't feel that way. Probably because when the children misbehave, I just have to raise my voice a little, and then they will quiet down. Anyways, I hope and vow not to let anger to govern me if I'm sent to a gov school next year. I don't wanna live that kind of torturous life.

Okay, I think I got to get back to my work. Sorry for the empty-in-juicy-news-and-details post. If there's anyone still reading this.

An act of kindness touches deep

First of all, this urge of posting is inspired by a little show of kindness to me from a friend whom i'm not really close with. I'm touched by her gesture, her generosity and so, i want to thank her here! Lye, i know you probably won't read this, but thank you! :D

And so, i want to thank the rest of my friends who are here when i need help or support. *getting emotional dy* Thank you for all of the thoughtfulness, the helps, the HELPS, the supports, the concerns etc. I deeply appreciate all of them and i will not forget them. ;)

In my previous post, i was pretty in a down state. Don't worry about it. I'm now alright! :)) More than alright i suppose. Hehe. The day before the competition, it was so terrible we felt we lost all hope. I was just thinking of going up and not to embarass ourselves only. So, in the morning of the competition day, we finally whipped up some simple mash up. (This is UPSI Got Talent competition, whereby it was opened to all UPSI students. Held in auditorium)

Before going up stage, i was pretty nervous. Really prayed to God and then performed. It was so scary, seeing the crowd but the shouts from friends really cooled me down. We didn't have a rehearsal using mics etc so there're so many technical problems. My guitar couldn't really be heard because i didn't know how to turn up the volume and i didn't know how loud it should be. Same goes to my mic. I thought it was already very loud so i drew further away from it, but after listening to the video, i realise i can't really be heard! Ugh! Wasted..can't really hear the harmonization! haha!

But anyway, when the result was being anounced, starting from the tenth place, we really thought we're not going to get anything at all when it reached the 3rd place because our group was still not called and the 3rd place is Kevin's team and they were so so good! So when they announced our name, i was like, "You serious ar? I don't think it's us la". When Syazza stood up, i wanted to tell her that i think we heard wrongly. But the judges looked at us, so i was like..omgeeee, is it really us?? Lol. So we got RM100 and a trophy! Still can't believe it.

Anyhow, life is back to the routine again i guess.Time to face assignments and tests! :)) God bless everyone!!

Special

Seizing the chance to update now in the library while waiting for the others for the next forum meeting! The days this week had been hectic ones. As usual i guess. Have to get used to the full timetable and constant flow of exams, presentations and assignmnents. This time with music practices. Hopefully my consistency level will be increased! Despite of such busyness, i'm lovin' it! Though of course, at times, i felt pretty lazy and wanted to just sleep it off, i feel productive and satisfied. But ahh, how i wish i have more time for all things! Better time management? Hmm..one thing i realise, my rate of doing things are deteriorating. I need more time to do the same amount of work than last time! Gotta improve on that. Oh well, enough of self-reminding post.=P

Anyway, this week is quite a ..... Weird? Special? Faith-and-love challenging week? There is indeed some changes around. In terms of friendship, vision, faith i believe. Earlier in this week, God has reminded me to look to Him in all that i do and He shall being prosper to whatever i am to do. He gave it in a vision to my pastor during worship where i was seen standing alone in a very BIG garden. Everything around me was pretty dull. But when i look up to God and stretch my hands to Him, everything around me, the flowers in the garden etc came to life and became a very beautiful garden. Then he said, God is with me. I was really touched by such honor that God give him this vision of me. It is very assuring. Yet again, at that time, i was like laughing at myself because how could i have forgotten that He is every bit interested in my life, again? Thank You Jesus!

Not going back hometown this weekend. Tomorrow will be having singing competition! Wish me the best! :DD

The 'straight' day

11.11.11

What a unique day. I'm actually kind of sleepy right now but wouldnt't want to miss posting something since i missed the previous one. First, it's all 11! Second, it gives me an honest feeling, cuz it's all straight? Third, it's Single's Day! Fourth, i just like it la. Fifth, no fifth. Well, bro texted me to wait for 11.11am. But i kind of missed the sms while missing the train. So, what i did at 11.11am on 11.11.11? Missed the train. And the next one which is 11.11pm on 11.11.11? Sleeping. Yeah, i just predicted that.

So anyway, Jack came down to KL. We had Jogoya and he treated me (thanks again!). It's been like years since i stepped into that place! The food was good. Service too. Environment too. But i think last time i was able to eat more than today! No more growing. Lol. All in all, was a great lunch. Had a short walk around Pavillion and then watched 'The Adventure of Tin Tin'. Its quite a nice movie. Somehow, it reminded me of Cassie! Perhaps, both are cute? :D Initially, i thought it would just be another typical cartoon story, but in the end, the storyline was pretty unpredictable for me, which is good. Steven Spielberg ma..lol.

So, 2 more days to uni! Time flies again! But this week was pretty productive, not in terms of assignments though. Productive in fulfilling promises, helping out, rejuvenating, catching ups. So, no regrets. :) Oh, yesterday night had a yumcha session with KHS buddies. All of them are pretty much the same. It was cool to listen to their stories from uni. Hehe.

K then, no more crapping and reporting events that are boring you right now (its ok, i know). *yawn* ta'z people! Calling it a day! Hoping to wake up at dawn tomorrow! *whispers*but actually she'll just snooze the alarm clock for another 2 hours.

Scouting~

I was out to Port Dickson early this morning with Pastor Peter and Simon. It has been like..5 years i didn't go there since the last youth camp we had! I miss the beach and the sea so much!!! But somehow my impression of the beach was pretty bad. I thought it would be really dirty and that the sea water will be murky. However, today, the beach is clean! And the sea water near the beach is blueeee! Well, pastor said there are two sides of PD and Tanjung Tuan (if im not mistaken) is cleaner than the other side. So, i sort of learnt the road to PD for future sake!

Anyway, we went to three campsites along the beach. The first one was the campsite where i first went to PH youth camp! Old memories! I was in form 1 then. Never would have thought then that i would return to scout for campsite places instead!! Nice place indeed. I still remember the place near the water dispenser where they hid one of the clues for treasure hunt. =P So, the second campsite was a Hawaiian-like place. Swimming pool, swimming pool with waves!, fake parrot, atap huts.. Nice! It is beside the beach too so the view is pretty awesome! Third was Methodist Hall. My third youth camp place. Memories! But too bad it is closed down and owned by Sime Darby :( a very nice place. Still remember the campfire we made! It was also where God brought me back to Him!

After that, pastor decided to take us to see the lighthouse. I think he was missing the place a lot because he was recounting all the memories at such and such resorts, hotels. Hehe. So, reached that place and found out no car is allowed this time. Well, since we reached already, pastor decided to walk up. Paid entrance fee for us, and up we went! Found out the journey up the hill was 600m! Glad i walked a lot in uni so was able to reeach the top. Haha. It was pretty hot too! The scenery above was amazing. But too bad the lighthouse was restricted. So, just went around it. Rest for a while on top, and then went down again. Was so hungry by then. Went to makan in one of the restaurants and pastor treated us. Had sate too! Fulfilled la!

So back to Kajang at about 3pm and went to cut my hair!! Couldnt't stand the messiness dy so decided to cut a little short. And outcome is kinda very short! Lol! Not that nice though. I feel my face too squarish already now. Oh wells, i dont't mind as long as im freed from all of those messiness! Im frrreeeed! :D

All in all, owned the day x)

Sweet sadness

Is there such a thing called sweet sadness? I think there might be! :) a sadness yet enveloped with hope! That's what im feeling right now. Just had a meet up with Jo-lyn, Vincent, Kah Hong and Ben in MV. After one and a half year? Its really time for that! Missed them so much and all their jokes and company! Only managed to contact through FB chats. Well, they didn't really change much except a little mature in the inside? Lol. I don't know when i'll get to meet with them again. My timetable clashed with theirs. But, i know we'll meet again.

This week, one of the things i learnt is to make the most out of every situation. Though the thing or situation may be rather crappy, i find that there will always be a life lesson out of it. Whatever that is given, make the best out of it and appreciate every moment in the process. Easier said huh? Well,i know it is very easy to say, but with a heart full of thanksgiving to God, it is practically impossible to feel that.

Alright, looks like another 6 days before uni! Should i follow Arnan's footsteps in those very very weird sleeping pattern? Like taking naps instead of sleep, shorten sleeping time, in order to do assignments and study? Lol. Well, I think...uhh....the longest i may be able to commit to such plan is one day! I'll definitely drop dead the next day. Glad im not an NUS student huh? :P bless that guy~

Oh, had captain ball last Saturday. It was fun! But too bad i couldnt join.D: Muscles were aching due to the dance practice and then carrying of bags. I could only watch and be the time and score keeper! Hope we'll organize this again in the near future!

"You just got to swim like a man"

Supposed to be sleeping now, but thought of blogging for a while. Had a gruelling day in the train today. Everyone rushed back home and so, it was so packed! I guess, this comic strip below truly describes how it was today.

SPARTAAANSSS!!

Like seriously.

When i reached Mid Valley station, i couldn't get out of the train initially. I had to really SWIM through the crowd, the opposing crowd through the door. I tried soooo hard until my bag ripped open without me realising. And it was still opened wide after i stepped like a hundred steps until i felt something was not right due to the pressure the bag gave. I turned around and i was like, oh my gosh! And all the while, no one even tried to tell me. I think they just stared. Tsk tsk. I don't know whether anything had dropped, but i think no. Thank God i decided to put all the stuffs in my other bag except my clothes.

Really don't understand why they just can't let the people inside go out first before entering. Ain't that easy?

The Joy

This week passes particularly fast. Faster than the previous weeks indeed. I don't think it is a good thing. I don't want the time to pass too fast.

Well, this week was filled with many things. Tests, assignments date line, meetings. At last i'm going to pass up my Reading Skills portfolio tomorrow. The joy~ :D

Yesterday, there was a vocal audition for my college and though i knew about it only that morning, i went anyway. It seems that i would be able to secure a place in hostel in semester 3 if i'm chosen. We waited for the judges until we felt bored and simply jammed songs with guitars. It was quite an enjoyable moment. I'm lucky to have some friends who love singing in the same college and same semester. In the end, the judge came and she told us we're all selected. Lol. Just like that. The joy~ :D

I went to Secret Recipe in Tg. Malim at last with Jack, Charlotte and Ken. We walked there from Tmn. Bernam. Well, walking towards the restaurant was not that bad, but walking back towards the campus bus stop was a little harder. However, it was worth it. On the way there too, i managed to drop by Yik Mun, AT LAST, to buy THE famous paos. The paos that everyone has been talking about! I find that the paos were pretty normal, and i think i could even get tastier paos in Kajang. But anyhow, still, the joy~ :D

Unconditionally!

Planetshakers concert was awesome! But it didn't last as long as i thought it would! Well, too bad also i don't really know the songs. Still, worshipping God with so many other brothers and sisters in Christ was one of the greatest feeling one can get! It just felt like being in heaven where you sing praise and worship songs together with all the saints towards our King, Jesus! The sermon was hilarious too. Well, one thing that the pastor spoke went right into my heart again like a reminder, or a nudge, or a bang! Its this. Jesus loves unconditionally. He...loves....unconditionally..... Unconditionally.

Well, i am actually struggling with issues regarding on how much i've given yet i'm not appreciated. And on how much i've been stepped on due to my "lembutness" (sort of). Well, it has always been the constant thing i'm facing. I contribute and yet either no one knows, or they just think i'm supposed to do it since im supposed to be the "good" one, or they just don't care. Then as time goes by, i slowly become selfish and protect my own needs first. Im not proud of this. I guess its some kind of self defense. No matter what, it is still bad, and it enters like a poison. But what i want to say here is that, GOD LOVES UNCONDITIONALLY! I've known this since a long time ago, and it has always been a constant message. You can see it on car stickers, song lyrics etc. Yet, today, these words spoke so much to me and i was directed to these issues im facing. He has loved me even when i rejected Him. He has loved me even when i don't care of His Words. He has loved me even when i'm ashamed of Him. He has loved me even when i take His love for granted..... If there's anyone who don't deserve His love, it should be ME! And yet, He loves me.......

It says, "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life."[John3:16]

Can i love others like that too? Can i love unconditionally? He's still dealing with me and i pray that i'll surrender unto Him in this matter!
Anyway, sorry if i sound preachy. I'm just feeling so much of His joy right now. On how He loves everyone!
God bless! :D

Broken eggs on ground

Yesterday was my first day of being out of home after a full one week! Me and another friend of mine tried to give a surprise birthday celebration to two of my friends but it looked like they were not that surprised after all. :( Ruin my high expectation and preparation. Like having broken eggs on ground.

Anyways, after that, watched Real Steel at last after so many of high recommendations from friends. The beginning of it was not that interesting until the middle where it caught my attention. I think i might have acted as if the cinema was my home. =P

I have 1 and a half more day left before uni starts! Glad that i'm almost done with my portfolio. Finished all the GOs and vocab works. Left 4 more reflections to go which i think should be alright. Well, i'm yet to study for the coming test on Tuesday though!

Going to Planetshakers concert later! I'm not really that excited yet. Probably it has not sunk in yet. I guess i will in an hour. Well, will blog about it probably tomorrow! :)

Aja!

Recently, I saw a post in FB that says

Immediately i was reminded of God's unconditional love! Indeed the line is very beautiful and touching. Despite of all shortcomings and repeated failures, He still look upon His children with love. How do i deserve that? I don't. But still, He loves me. And you too. :)

Anyway, i found out just yesterday that all of my sickness in the last couple of days are due to my low blood pressure! I've been having that for years but this time, it was lower than usual. Thus all the dizziness, headaches, stiff neck and fever.Why i assume it was because of that? Mum gave me iron to drink on Monday, and i felt much better. My fever subsided too after that and i don't feel too stiff-necked or terrible headache. I still have a little of dizziness but it's not really that bad now. Glad i know the cause.

Well, i didn't know i have to deal seriously with low blood pressure but i guess i have to now. Read all the side-effects of it and they are simply no good. Plus im too young for all of these to happen now. One of the side-effects is confusion! D: That's me. It seems the lack of blood to the brain affect the thinking process and in storing memories.

I guess, it's time for me to put on my mask, and be in this real combat! B)

Thoughtfulness

I'm still in almost the same condition as yesterday. Its actually pretty dynamic. At times, i don't feel that bad, then it takes a downward turn towards the worse. When will this end? Bleeeaaarrrggh.

Well, even though this has detered me from some plans, i'm not going to let it deters ALL of my plans. Those that require lesser energy especially. Not assignments! They're gruelling! Lol.

Just now i read a blog post somewhere where the blogger complained about certain things regarding his certain friends. The blog was in public, as in anyone can view it even the ones he was complaining about. It was pretty obvious who he was referring to. So, the friend saw it and she commented. It was also obvious she was hurt by what he said through the comment she wrote.

This makes me think, is it worth it to say whatever you want in a public blog and hurt the ones reading it? Is it appropriate to say all of these? Maybe the blogger was feeling intense feelings about the whole thing, but i think, some things are meant to be kept quiet or tolerated and be left as it is. Or if you want to voice out your opinion, just talk to the person straight instead of telling the person indirectly through a public blog. If you don't want to do something, just say no and move on. You don't have to leave a trace of resentment on the way out. Lol. I'm not going to explain what was the story about. If you're confused, then ... be confused laah =P Well, with all that was said, i hope i didn't make the same mistake! In case you're wondering, the person doesn't read my blog. Hehe.

Anyway, coming back home with a sick body is in a way torturing! There are so many food i want to eat! Lol. 8 more days to recover!

God bless~ :)

Burning

In my previous post, I stated that I was feeling pretty unwell. Yesterday night was the worst where I woke up feeling so hot like never before and body aching and shivering. I woke up and tried to walk to the bathroom for some wet cloth to cool down my body but I couldn't really walk properly. I had to focus every step I took to reach to and fro the bathroom. In the end, I popped in a Panadol pill and the fever subsided in the morning. Though was a little dizzy by the end of my Reading Skills class, thank God I managed to make it to college, to campus, to KTM station, to Rawang station and then to Kajang!

I was feeling pretty dizzy by the time I reached home and body ached again, with some other symptoms. So I went to the doctor. He checked my body temperature and it was over 38 degree Celsius! I didn't even realized I was having fever when I got home. I guess yesterday night, my body temperature must be over 40 degree because I was so burning up and I thought I was gonna go blind! Glad I'm still alive...wow. I remember when I was a kid, my body temperature reached 42 degree and I was blessed to not die or go mentally retarded or blind. Anyway, after checking some other stuffs, he told me I am having viral fever. So yeah. There goes my plans for this weekend. =( am supposed to go Logos ship this Sunday too but I guess I'm not in the condition. Sad. I've never been to the ship before. Oh wells. I guess it's fortunate of me to not fall sick during Planetshakers concert! Hopefully will be ok by then. Ta'z people, and take good care!

P/s: this is my first post using my iPad2! :D opened the box today..bliss~

knock knock

I'm supposed to be doing my GOs (Graphic Organizers) now but i'm just too lazy. The weather is so cooling and my bones are paining right now! I've never had such pains before. It started from yesterday after i got drenched with the rain. After that, suddenly i had twice of shot-up fever. One yesterday night and one this afternoon. In the end, i just couldn't stand it so i took a Panadol. =( Well, at least the fever has left me. Left headache, dizziness and bone pain. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Long journey in train with bone pain will be very suffering.

Yesterday too i had my first session of jamming with Jack! We found a really good room in the campus. At last! But carrying guitar to campus from afternoon is pretty tiring and embarassing. Well, at least the end result was good! Had lots of fun.

I'm done with exams and presentations for now. Only for one week though. After next week, the exams resume. D: But am glad that some of the presentations are done with because my groups were chosen to be the earlier ones to present. (More to we drew lots and my groups got the earlier turns) hehe.

Oh, one more update, a few days ago, i gave in to buying an iPad 2. Lol. I find it pretty useful and i was thinking since i don't have a nice phone, why not get an iPad? =P And it arrived this morning! Mum called and now i'm so excited to go home tomorrow! :D

Another update, just want to say again, prayer is indeed powerful! :) Many times we may not see the result in the beginning, but in the end of the day, miracles do happen! In a way you may or may not realise until the end. So just wanna encourage fellow Christians who read this blog to never cease praying and not to give up when things seem bleak. God bless peepah! :DD

inhumane

Recently i watched a video regarding a young boy who was about 5 years old. He was hit by a van and abandoned at the road. The driver did not stop to send the boy to the hospital. Instead he or she just continued to run over the boy. This is not the saddest part yet.

 The saddest part is that after that, there were so SO SOOOO many people passing the boy who was lying on the road with broken body and smashed legs - bleeding all over the place and yet DID NOT stop to call the ambulance or DID any action to help the boy at all! They just avoid walking over the boy and passed by him without a second glance like seeing a hurt dog at the side of the road.

I was like...what the heck! THEY WERE SO FREAKING INHUMANE! What's wrong with them? Not only that, a second van came after the first van and the driver ran over the boy AGAIN! OMGEEE! A third van followed and the driver avoided driving over the boy but did not stop by to help him. Ugh!

By that point, i was like totally mad (still am!) with those people. They're not human at all. After some time, a lady rubbish collector who was dumping the rubbish noticed the boy. She hesitated a little in the beginning whether to help or not but in the end, she carried the boy and lifted him off the middle of the road to the side. and.........guess what......she just LEFT HIM THERE AFTER THAT!!! I was even boiling by then! D=<

How can anyone do that? How can anyone even have the heart to do that? I couldn't watch anymore after this point. It was so INHUMANE!!! Again what's wrong with them? In the end, another lady in her 30s saw the boy and quickly carried him to the hospital....

Sigh..looking and hearing at all of these stories really make me astounded and reminded at how capable human can sin. Of how corrupted humans are. Even babies. Humans are indeed incapable of saving themselves from all of these mess. Only Miracles can.

A close call

It had been a hectic day yesterday. I didn't even have time to update my blog. And now im updating on the bus! :P Well, yesterday was my exam and presentation day for both of my classes. So, started my journey from home since 9.30am. Supposed to go out at 9am but had some miscommunication with dad so it was a lil bit late. Nevertheless, when i reached the station, i had to wait for another 20mins. The train was delayed or perhaps the previous train had just passed. So yeah. It was still alright that time. Then, after an approximately one hour journey, i reached Rawang station at about 11.15am. One thing that is very funny. Previously, all of my journeys especially the transit from Rawang train to Tg Malim train were really smooth. Whenever i reached Rawang station from Kajang, the train to Tg Malim would always be there waiting for me. Thus, i've always thought the trains were pretty frequent. However, the opposite happened yesterday (of all days!) when i couldn't afford to be late! I had to wait for another 45 minutes because the next scheduled train was to arrive at 12pm! Wow..kind of worried already because it would take me another hour to reach plus all of the inbetween journeys might take some time (station to campus, campus to hostel, hostel to PC) AND my class was starting at 2pm!

I calmed myself down and tried to look at it as achievable. Slept throughout the journey and also tried to memorize my script for the oral presentation. The people on the train must had thought i was crazy because i was like talking to myself all the way in commuter and the train. Hehe.

Anyway, in the end, i took a taxi from station instead of the uni bus to campus. After that, had to wait for about another 20 mins for the bus to arrive at campus. I didnt manage to go back hostel to put my bags so i had to bring them all around. Thank God that for this week i'd decided to bring my netbook home thus it was with me.

Oh well, talking about my exam and presentation. I don't know what to say about it. Don't know what positive things to say about it. All i can say is that i guess i've tried my best. For the exam, it was pretty ok but i know i made some mistakes or put in the wrong answer. Just couldn't think of other answers. For oral, it was..pretty bad. I kept forgetting what i was going to say so had to refer to my script a couple of times. Sigh. Hope to do better next time.

After all that was said, I'm still glad that two of the exams and presentations are over! Time to prepare for the coming ones! :) Good day to all of you!

Care & Love

What did i learn today? I guess to make the effort to care for someone. Kinda heavy huh? Maybe. This is something that i'm still in the process of learning! Well, today me and another friend of mine went to see Dr. Goh, who is one of our TESL lecturers. He is also one of the members from the English church we attended last Sunday here. He called us for a simple chat and get-to-know session. Very warm and nice person he is! One of the examples of exerting myself to care for someone. I guess to care for someone requires effort too! I've always thought that some people are able to care without giving effort to it, but now i feel that, no matter how easy the person may show in caring, effort is indeed needed in the process!

I am reminded of the meaning of love too today. In fact, these words popped up to me while i was showering. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. How pure is love! Constantly, i've not loved as how i should. No matter who and on what situations. I know the only way for me to love is to know more of God's love AND to let it soak in me. Commitment time! :)

Actually i'm really sleepy right now and it's been a tiring day. Had dance class just now and it was pretty fun. I think i'm 5% into getting the hang of this? Lol.
God bless! :)

Down..down..down..down..down..

Today i had my first group presentation that carries marks. We were the first group to present and we needed to teach the other students on Lompat Tinggi. What i can say about the presentation is that it totally went down hill. Well, we had tried our best but it seemed that it was not enough. Everything was pretty dull because the students were not giving much cooperation. On top of that, more than half of them came 30 mins late so our presentation had to be shorten 30 mins! Which means a 1 and a half hour teaching became 1 hour. D: At the end of the lesson, the instructor who was giving us the marks said some stuffs that confirmed that we weren't that good. Ugh, hopefully by being first to present, we got enough 'markah kasihan' to get us through! Oh wells~ one of the factors that makes my mood pretty bad. I guess i'm just having one of my moody days today. Went vegetarian for the night. A sign of mourning? lol. Anyway, shall rejoice because at least now 1 presentation down, 3 others to go for this and next week itself! :)

Child Abuse

I read a book called “The Lost Boy” yesterday night. It was a real testimony of a boy who had been abused and escaped from it. It shows how the boy struggled through it until his adulthood. A really touching story. I never knew how an abused child goes through life before this until i read this book written by the child himself who has grown up. His name is David Pelzer. I realised the work of a child abuse social worker is really worth honoring. You need love and lots of wisdom to gain the trust of an abused child and also to help him or her go through it. Not many children are brave enough to voice out the trouble they are facing at home. Its more towards the work of teachers at school. Teachers at school must be alert on what’s going on their students. In this story, this boy was first rescued by the teachers who realised those marks on his hands and his constant scraping for food in the school’s garbage bin due to lack of food.

I felt sort of more pulled towards the job of a teacher and in the same time, and the first time, a child abuse social worker. I feel that everyone is given a chance to help out, in this case, children. It’s whether we are willing to make the first brave step and and have compassion on them.

When i was contemplating about this, i suddenly remembered the short “message” im assigned to deliver this Friday in the opening of my church Mission Weekend. It’s about child abuse! It says: “A report of child abuse is made every ten seconds. Almost five children die every day as a result of child abuse. What can I do about it?”

Is that a coincidence? I don’t think so. I would like to think that it's an "eye opener" to me.
Now, I guess when i deliver the message this Friday, i'll speak with conviction rather than merely stating my well-rehearsed message.

Sweet & Precious

They are more precious than gold,

than much pure gold;

they are sweeter than honey,

than honey from the comb.

By them is your servant warned;

in keeping them there is great reward.

(: