When i first stepped into my bedroom this morning, i almost burst out in tears. Seeing my jacket, my bed, my books, my windows, etc...ahh..bliss! They simply moved and warmed my heart to see something familiar after a long time, like meeting back my long lost best friend! I know i sounded very emotional, and its not thaaaat long i was away to justify such expressions, but i don't know why i really almost lost my mind right there at that time. Lol.
Anyways, back track now. I was away for almost 3 weeks...again. This time, i was back to my mum's hometown, Perlis. Mainly i wanted to spend time with my grandma. I'd always wanted to stay there for a longer period since a few years back but couldn't due to school and etc. I guess it's not too late. I don't know when i'll have this opportunity anymore....
Being back this time, i realised there were many changes happening again and going to happen. I'm really scared of what is to come next. Everyone is getting old..... At times, i feel like i have to be a strong spiritual anchor...to really pray...to really fast for a good end to those changes. I know i can't prevent things from happening, i can't make the time to stop for me..but i know God is in every bit there on Heaven as it is here. He holds everything. I'm just scared that i'll be a seasoned watchtower. Anyway, i'll not lose hope. As Paul said here..
"Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses.....; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God....." [2 Corinthians 6:4-7a]
I will take Paul's example.
Just keep me moving.
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