battling with movies

I love to watch movies. Well, i don't know anyone who doesn't. I'd been watching even more after i knew how to download them through torrent since exam is stressing me up more than ever. For about 3 weeks, i would watch about one movie in one or two days, which was pretty bad.

Until last week, i felt this movie-watching was going to get me or was already getting me addicted. I knew i had to stop immediately and fast from them before it gets even more out of control. Honestly, i didn't know whether i'll be able to but i told God to help me in this no matter what happen, to fast from it until after my exam or until next year. Thank God, i made it without touching any until last night.

To my dismay, I let my guard down yesterday. After my family steamboat, usually my family's activity is to watch movie together. I was kinda tired after a whole day outside and i knew that i wouldn't be able to study. I should have retreated back to spend more time with Him. However, i initiated for everyone to watch movie as it was like a 'tradition'. My excuse for God was, 'Ah, just one time. A little won't hurt right? Since i'm this tired dy and it'd been one week..'. I was actually kinda in between or battling between two decisions before the movie.

But, I watched when it was played. Though my eyes were beginning to droop, the movie slowly captivated me. It was eleven. Then all of a sudden, after 10 minutes, there were no electricity.

I blinked, and was stunned. I blinked again in the darkness, hardly able to believe it. My first thought was, 'Wow God, You are amazing!' Then, i remembered this verse 'No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.' from 1 Cor 10:13. :D

It had been many many months, maybe a year ago or so, since the last electricity break down and it was seldom in my neighbourhood. But, it happened on the night i began to watch movie when i shouldn't. I don't know whether this is a coincidence, but i felt that He is indeed helping me!

I was really happy with having no electricity, surprisingly. I laid down on my bed, with the windows open, battling not to sweat. And i smiled, and smiled, hoping that the electricity will not come back. I felt so free, like having all those distractions from all sorts of electrical stuffs such as computer, tv, radio, phone, wiped away from my way. Indeed, I wanted to stay in a village where there is no electricity! I know, that's a crazy thought. =P I thank God that at last, i didn't get to watch even a quarter of the movie.

So yeah. Another one month of fasting! =))