Combo

I had my Double Freedom in two days!

First is the liberation from exams.

Second is freedom from METALS!

Yes metals aka braces! I just took off my braces yesterday after 2 years of wearing it! :D Feeling so good right now. It is like acquiring a new set of teeth. Hehe.

So now, i guess it's time for more smiling!!

Okay...maybe not. 

An imprint..

I really felt like a birthday girl yesterday! Because STPM is finally over! :D

Now, i have a stretch of free time to tread. Suddenly feel pretty weird to be so free from any school-related thing. I feel like a nomad now. I guess this is the season for discipline? I mean with all of those free time, i can simply fall into a state of extreme laziness and grow stupid, slower and fat. And yeah, i'm greatly vulnerable to those. So, i'm here reminding myself to discipline and execute all those plans in this almost one year holiday! Ahh..one year holiday..sounds nice! :D

When i came back yesterday, grinning from ear to ear, i was greeted by another thing that made me grin more than ever. The arrival of a sweet card from my little sister in India!

 

She planted a tree a few weeks back and named it my name! Though it was a green project organized by the helpers in World Vision but still it's so sweet! Here is an imprint of a leaf of my tree in India.

:D

So, wanna be a joy to somebody else and receive much greater joy in return? Adopt a child! :D

first pouring

tingling.think.                                    letter.confusion.

regret.past.good.bad.night.              dreams.crease.holding.crying.

sharing.yearning.learning.boldness.heart.unknown.growing.passion.love.

promises.understanding.nothingness.selfish.pain.incomplete.faith.life.

loneliness.hope.sins.pride.closeness.companion.friends.mistakes.

peace.light.remember.memories.failings.forgiveness.mercy.

care.missing.tears.fool.laughter.time.judgement.pure.

wisdom.dear.shy.courage.trust.guidance.

hand.smile.wondering.first.guard.

gift.worry.appreciate.forget.

hug.comfort.words.

destiny.family.

God.

Grieving

Freaaaaaaaaaaaking sad :(

Says my FB status too.

Maths paper 1 had just passed. It was supposed to be really easy! This is, i think, the easiest Maths paper 1 i'd ever seen in form 6 exams. Even compared to the previous stpm papers. Yet, how can i forget how to solve them?! Ugh! I'd seen almost all of the type of questions in the paper but i couldn't recall the workings during the exam. I needed more time to think but time was up so fast! :'( Would have gotten 20 more marks if only i can recall. Now, i've to depend on paper 2 more than ever, which is much much harder than paper 1. It's so impossible to get higher marks than paper 1. So so impossible. But i have to, in order to pass this exam. Siiiiggghhh... i'm just so sad. :'(

..Me: (off to mourn maths paper 1)..
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..Me: (looks around) but.. but... where's the grave?..
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..Random 1: you'll see it in march..
..Random 2: for now, i guess, you can just mourn in your heart..
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..Me: oh..oh.......OOHHHHHHHH *faints*

Dreams..

..aspirations..ambitions..desires..wishes..

Everyone has them. And i'm one of them. Recently, i made a list of things i want to do in my life in a website. Well, some are short term and some are long term. Some are of higher importance and the rest lesser. Altogether until now, i have about 50 things in the list. It's not that many compared to the others in the website who have at least 200 dreams (the most i saw is 3000!).

Seeing that it's the end of the year and also more importantly, closing to the end of my schooling life, i am quite anxious of what's next. What's next after this? Till now i have a vague idea of what i am to do. Still, on the other hand, i don't know whether it is what i really am meant to be doing. What i know is that in the future, i will be traveling around, by God's grace. But, what's in between? Now, my intention is to be a teacher, an English teacher to be precise. Frankly, i don't know whether i'm up to that as i've always wanted to teach Maths when i was young. Till last year, English caught my eye (its getting more interesting!) besides Maths being a disappointment. I was thinking if i am to study English, i can use that as a tool to travel around. But, still the same questions, am i good in teaching that subject? Is this really what God wants with me? Or am i the one assuming that i am to be that? I think that i've not done well in my exams this year. I am just hoping that i am above the required pointer to enter a uni. I'm not really having much hope that they'll offer me the course i want even if i get to enter, in that case, i'll choose to go to a private uni for TESL. Ah..a long crooked way and full of uncertainties!

I think i'm already in a holiday mood though i have one more week to go. 3 more papers - 2 Maths papers and Chemistry paper 1. So near yet so far! I hope next week will come very soon. I'm already thinking of how little days of next year i get to be at home relaxing if i am off to study in July. I need more!

Justin prays

I am not a Justin Bieber's fan but this song caught my attention when one of my friends posted this in Facebook. I thought it is a meaningful song and i didn't once think that he would sing this type of song. I'd always thought that he will be those kind of young teenager, who only care about money, fame and himself because he became so popular in such a young age. So, there is pretty a high chance that all these might get into his head and make him an arrogant person. But, i guess i am wrong here. 

Well, i quote my friend's words, "If this is where he's headed, I could really respect this guy." Couldn't agree more. :)

Hope that he will continue to head to the right direction.

p/s: I'm done halfway with STPM. Four more papers to go!