Gratitude Challenge Day 11

The things I'm grateful of / for today:

A) I found out that I will not have to teach the form 4 this coming Thursday. This gives me more time to concentrate on my action research first!

B) no judgement when I said something that has sounded quite far-fetched but it was what I really thought at that time. I am still not sure whether what I thought is true. 

C) for not judging my messiness. Haha! 

D) the free laksa in school today. And it was laksa lemak! First time eating belacan just like that. One piece. Lol.

E) God for His protection today!

Gratitude Challenge Day 10

Today I had another sort of bad day in school. Lol. Students were all pretty sluggish today and I couldn't stand it. Scolded many of them. Well.. Why couldn't they change their attitude? Pretty disappointed with them.

Anyways, I have a few things that I am grateful of today.

A) the time that we could understand more of each other. The personality test helped me to see and understand more on who you are as sometimes I am just too blind or not sensitive enough. :)

B) my Practicum friends who are sporting enough to break out from school with us. Lol. We just wanted to skip a meeting which actually had nothing to do with us. 

C) the time in mamak today. I just love those kind of talk. It makes me feel like evrything will be alright again. 

D) Gem's post on God. I am amazed that she is brave enough to post quite a few posts on God, praising Him and all. This is a very huge encouragement. She did it even though she knows many of her fans may not be Christians and may not like the posts. That's called not being ashamed of God! :)

E) the picture of my dog taken by my father. He just tickles me sometimes. Looking at his picture, his mischievous act, could just put a smile on my face!

F) my discipline teacher for offering his help. He asked me of everything is alright and on whether the students are giving me trouble as I seemed pretty stressed today. Then he said it's ok, that if there's anything, just inform him and he will handle. I'm grateful for such support although I think I will not send any names to him la :)

Jesus fed thousands of people with 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish. Nothing is impossible for Him. The people begged to touch the edge of the Jesus' clothe so that they can be healed. With such faith, those who touched were healed. We just have to seek and ask Him to help us. I am asking Him for help in my coming observation. I cannot control how the students will be as their behaviour is pretty erratic. I am also not yet sure on what is the best way to execute four skills in 40 minutes (will be a feat and I have not had a one-period class to practice on before). But I will ask God to help me because I believe He is a God who answers prayers. So now, I will lay my worries at His feet. Amen.

Gratitude Challenge Day 9

Today is another rocky day. However, I am feeling joy now. I am feeling like crying and laughing at the same time. I am feeling like God is still here with me despite of everything. I am feeling beyond happy that I can always go back to Him. I am feeling grateful that I know Him. Without Him, what will happen to me? I will not know joy. That true joy that cannot be found everywhere but in Him alone. I wish that I will not only turn to Him in troubles times! I will not let that happen again.

I am grateful for:

A) the speedy recovery. I had a terrible flu and mild fever earlier this afternoon and evening. I couldn't do anything but to sleep. Thank God I am recovering now.

B) the act! It is kind of his first time encouraging me by sending me a video on God. Previously, he only asked me to seek Him and read the Bible when I was feeling really pressured. I guess He is doing something in his heart. 

C) the encouragement given by friends through FB. I feel supported. The likes, comments and personal messages, I really appreciate them. 

D) the simple act of saying sorry. Cleaned bathroom and etc and taking the steps to say sorry first even though I should be the one who said sorry for not understanding. That, makes me feel loved. 

Gratitude Challenge Day 8

Today is one of those not easy days to be thankful but i will try my best to. After all, this is the purpose of my challenge.

Number One: the call from my mum. It has been some time we didn't have a phone conversation. 

Number Two: the change of lamp despite the will.

Number Three: no class today in school and i got to take a very long afternoon nap.

Number Four: managed to install the bathroom lock!

I thought of my grandfather today. I miss him. I was quite close to him, but I never really know him deeply because i was very young. He passed away when i was at the age of 7. The age when i dont even know the existence of cancer. I hope he is at a better place now.

Gratitude Challenge Day 7

Grateful of:

A) the Practicum friends I have in my school. They are one bunch of nice people. They make my life in school much better!

B) the head of Penyelia peserta. She is friendly and helpful. I love working with her! Am glad that I am in her team.

C) my lecturer/supervisor again for her goodwill and intention to teach us more! 

However, am hiding behind a rock!

P/s: had my first combination of nasi kambing and susu kambing in a meal. :D

Grateful Challenge Day 6

The things I'm grateful of yesterday:

A) I was able to get some rest as I took sick leave. It was the most relaxing day I have ever felt since a very long time ago. I didn't feel stressed at all. Even the recent holidays didn't give such feeling to me. 

B) I asked for one day leave, doctor gave me two days. Reminds me of God. God gives more than we ask!

C) I got to go to Junior's Welcoming Night. 

Gratitude Challenge Day 5

Things that I'm grateful for:

A) Puan Kow for her friendliness and guidance during koko meeting.

B) my Remove class. They made me happy with their funny remarks and their cooperation. 

C) I got some time to relax at night. Much needed rest after the long day!

Thank God for helping me through another day in school! :)

Gratitude Challenge Day 4

I'm grateful of:

A) my supervisor. She actually cares for what is happening to us! I hope that she will see the truth and stand for justice. :)

B) jerry because he becomes my person "gym" trainer and motivator. :D grateful for his care towards my health. 

C) supportive friends. I could just share the things that are bothering me and they would support me in all manners.

Finally, I thank God for the major event that happened today, the news which was delivered by my housemate. God seems to be opening a way for us! 

However, I was quite drawn towards Mark 3 whereby Jesus was constantly observed by the Pharisees as they were trying to find fault with Him. Jesus of course is faultless. He purposely performed miracles in front of them so that they may believe. However, they had stubborn hearts and Jesus was distressed. 

Anyway, I felt like He is telling me through the verses that I should not allow "them" to find any fault in me. I will have to raise my standard even higher. I hope I can be able to do that. Christ, strengthen me!

Gratitude Challenge Day 3

Things I am grateful of today:

1) Had my first observation from the lecturer today. It was a surprise visit and she wanted to observe one of us. I volunteered as I am prepared. The marks are not that satisfying by I have learnt a lot from her feedback and encouragement. Will try my best to improve!

2) The concerned look given by her to us after the "meeting". I think she is willing to hear us out and understand our side of story. This gives a kind of light unto our situation. 

3) Feel blessed to be treated by our China friend, Resa. 

4) The explanation from the book Case for Faith that Jesus undoubtedly performed miracles. It just gave me so much joy knowing that Jesus is indeed real! He is as real as you and me! :))

God, thank You for today. It is indeed a tough day. Despite everything that has happened and is still happening, I pray that I will learn to trust in You and to act out of love. For love drives out fear. May the fear in my heart be driven out and Your love to fill me. 

Gratitude Challenge Day 2

The things that I am grateful of today:

1) Church feels like home and I have missed this atmosphere for quite some time. The people were friendly too and seemed genuine.

2) A forgiving boyfriend. 

3) A dependable brother.

Thank God for His presence today. :)

Gratitude Challenge Day 1

I am going to challenge myself to post at least 3 things that I'm grateful of each day for 49 days. Instead of posting in Twitter, which was my initial plan, I will be posting here in my blog. Only by doing so will I be able to look back at how wonderful God is in my life. I think it will be really encouraging to me in the future.

Why 49 days? Because these are my remaining Practicum days. I had been having a hard time in my previous Practicum days. Many bad things happened and I was under depression because there was really nothing I could do to make the bad things go away. Everything was out of control and I felt suffocated.

Nevertheless, despite of everything, I think, it was what I actually needed. In this mess that I was in, where I felt like there was no escape, I was forced to turn to God because I know it is only Him alone that could help me go through it. I am still not out of the hole that I am in, but this situation I am in, God has used it to draw me closer to Him. That is why I would like to seek Him, to trust in Him. Last Sunday, I thought I needed to go to a church again. In the end, I went to Glad Tidings PJ and the message on that day was about trusting God despite of circumstances. I am very grateful to God for that message. He sent another message to me when I was urged to open my Bible app in my phone the other day. The verse of that day was Psalm 91. I felt like I actually surfaced from this dark water I am in when I read it. I am still swimming in the water but I know, with each Word he feeds me, I will be able to swim out of this water soon.

So, these are some of the reasons why I would like to start this Gratitude Challenge. I want to see everyday as a gift from God. I want to be able to reflect back during bad days and draw some good out of it. I want to learn to be thankful to God by this practice. I want to allow His presence in my life, that everything I do will speak forth of His love. I hope that I will persevere in challenging myself in this.

Three things that I am grateful of today:
1) My friend, Yi Yeen. I know that God puts her in this period of my life in order to encourage me and pull me back to Christ. Her constant care and loyalty have encouraged me tremendously.
2) The sermon in youth fellowship today because it reminds me that fellowship is important. Everyone needs to have fellowship.
3) My boyfriend, Jerry, for helping me to settle the bill first and to print my class materials. Thank you for being helpful.
4) I was able to buy a Bible which is very affordable and is what I need. My old ones were spoilt and I needed one. Was afraid that I could not find the shop and that the shop would be closed.
5) My parents reached Perlis safely this evening. Was a bit worried as it was raining this morning.

Most of all, thank You Jesus for being with me today. :)