Saturday, July 27, 2013

Pancakes OTW

I sent my mum off to the bus station yesterday night.
And now, i am all alone.












Cooking pancakes.

*eyes popping out with mouth opened wide if you want* (only applies for those people who know i am not the cooking type)

Yes. That is how bored i am right now.
But then, it is quite fun actually..whipping out my own magic in the kitchen.
It is still in the pan, in the heat.
To be honest, I have totally NO idea whether it will come out fine.
It is now half-cooked, and..urm..actually looks kind of weird..the colour i mean.
I think i have put too much oil..? Or is it flour..?

I really hope its edible. =S

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Choose to move forward

I feel defeated.
A lot of things seem to be falling apart. Things seem to be so easy for others, yet to me, they are so hard to be achieved. The dreams and hopes that i have always had, come so easily to people but me.
I feel .. defeated.
But i want to believe that, one day, i will be a conqueror too. If there is no such hope anymore, what will my life be on earth then? Surrender to the fate of life? Is fate the determiner of all things or are there other roads to fighting back fate? I want to believe that God is bigger than this fate. I want to believe, with this little faith i have.
I know i lack of so many things in me. But for now, i want to believe that things will change if i have the will and faith. Not only to believe, but to act on this belief.
Let the past be the past. With every failure, i will make them as stepping stones to success. For hard work, determination, perseverance and faith, shall be my companions in this journey ahead.

Sunday, July 7, 2013

The finale

Today would be my last day in grandma's house, most probably, in this year. I have been staying here for the past three weeks. Thought i would not be able to survive but i did. It was not that hard this time as i could connect with the outside world at least, thanks to the broadband from aunt.

What i didn't expect to feel is mm-se-dak-ness to leave. I thought i would be awfully glad on this day. Well, i do feel a little glad as i can now move on to do the things i need to do at home, and that i would finally be at home with family members after months! But still, the thought of leaving my grandma behind leaves a sad feeling in me. I also will miss the constant visits from aunts and uncles who will bring along food. P/S: Good for my tastebuds :D

With all that is said, i now pronounce the end of another season in Perlis. Looking forward to the start of a new season, this time, a season full of trips! ^^

Friday, July 5, 2013

Reborn

This blog has been dead for quite some time aye. I doubt there is anyone who is still viewing this blog. Probably given up anticipating for the never-coming new post. :D

I actually forgot the existence of this blog until yesterday night when my friend sent to me the link to her blog. She told me that she has done a couple of advertorials and got paid for it. Pretty interesting aye. I might be considering doing some of it too.

Anyway, the purpose of this post is more for me to remind myself on what i need to do in this holiday...or in the future. At times i found myself veering towards other non-productive things and thus wasting my time. In the end, i would blame myself for not putting my head and heart to the things i have vowed myself to do, including my interests! Heck, i know i love my interests, once i am actually doing it and reaping the benefits of it. It may seem funny to hear that it would require me effort to work on my interests, but its true to me. Perhaps i am just lazy that way. Time to change!
"Life would be more colourful if  one is hardworking." A phrase i have formed in my head and is hoping to stick to it.

Things i would like to do:
1) Make a scrapbook with the photos from each trip in the past.
2) Work as a freelancer. Anything that i can afford to do.
3) Update this blog.
4) To have a healthy lifestyle.
5) To not lose contact with old friends. Though i really suck in long-distance relationships with friends. I actually did not realise it until my "sister" told me about it.

Just five is enough for now. I do not want to be too ambitious about this. Hopefully this would work. :)